Everyday is a Gift

Hellooo....

2010-08-03T10:25:00.009+07:00

Aku masih disini, itu yang paling tepat!!! buat yang kali mungkin ibu2 yang mencari diriku dan ingin tau keberadaan ku, aku masih melakukan hal yang sama being a working Mum by choice untuk saat ini dan juga "full-time-mum-wannabe" at least buat 2 bulan :-) kepengennya!

Setelah berkutat dengan kemalasan nge blog dikarenakan asiiik ketemu temen2 di facebook yang kemudian juga mati suri karna kinda bored, trus twitter-an (padahal ketemunya ya temen-temen itu-2 juga) tp kesannya lebih seru!! dan sekarang berniat blogging lagi dengan penuh semangat! Semangat? yeah semangat sih boleh tapi ngga ada ide apa yang mau di tulis..bukannya ga ada kejadian yang menarik banyak banget ! (belagu dikit boleh ya??) Sebagai blog perdana tahun ini dan untuk tetap mempertahankan ciri khas kita sebagai manusia yang penuh ke-egois-an, aku mulai dengan up date tentang seputar keluarga kecil ku ya.. hhhmmm...

- Kakak G udah kelas 3 sekarang, udah mulai banyak nuntut dan bener kritis terhadap ayah dan mami, dan Kakak G sampai hari ini tetep sebagai barometer penguji kecerdasan emosi yours trully dan ayah tentunya... :-)

- Anugrah sudah SD yeeeeaaayyy! makin hari makin sweet dan dalam umur 6 tahun Nugra sudah bisa bertanggung terhadap kewajibannnya misalnya : bikin PR, belajar ...makan tapi tetep lah Nugra masih 6 tahun..kalo udah ketemu game..kalo ga ada "local police" aka yours trully ini, laaa sami mawon ga inget waktu...

- Ayah hhhhmmm...what about him? He is ayah with all his rules wink!! He is the Man in family... (kali-kali aja Ayah baca ;-)

- 2 Assistants udah ganti yang senior pada pulang kampung..panjang dan males critanya kenapa mereka pulang kampung, assistants yang sekarang masih muda2 jadi cape lah kita ngajarin dari awal...:-( tapi sudahlah the key of happiness just being grateful katanya, jd stop buang waktu untuk ngomel singsingkan lengan baju dan kerjakan!! :-) keren ya!

- Tempat tinggal masih sama..mortgage juga belum lunas :-) doain doong cepet lunas..

Wokeeey deh, nanti disambung lagi crita yang lebih fokus jiaaaah..fokus, sekarang mesti siap2 mau terbang ke Balikpapan-Samarinda untuk 3 hari, buat yang pengin tahun yours trully mau ngapain kesana yang jelas bukan liburan dont even think!! tetep semangat Ladies-Mums*! ntar balik aku critain deeh..gimana enaknya kepiting Tarakan itu...

Ciao....!!

*Ladies - Mums karna ga yakin ada laki2 yang baca ato lebih parah ga yakin ada yang baca :-)

Wisdom from my loved ones..

2009-12-14T14:55:00.005+07:00

Saat terindah bersama keluarga adalah pada saat kita berkumpul, baik itu rekreasi atau kegiatan rutin yang setiap hari kita jalanin, yang pasti hampir setiap pagi yours trully selalu anter anak sekolah sebelum berangkat kerja, dan pulang kantor hampir pasti lagi kumpul bertiga belajar, atau sekedar bacain buku crita, hal yang rutin buat kakak, Ade dan mami ada aja yang bikin kesel, marah dan senyum, gembira macem2 deh..tapi lebih banyak gembira daripada senewen, dan sering kali kesempatan itu kita pakai buat bertukar cerita apa yang kita alami hari itu, meskipun jadi sering ngobrol daripada belajar. Banyak sekali yang kita bisa saling belajar, mami belajar sabar..hik..hik..which was very hard!! dan terus terang lebih banyak mami yang belajar sebenernya disini, "learn to be a better mum". Seperti misalnya percakapan2 anak2 yang genuine dan tak terduga yang pasti hasil olahan mendengar dari sekitarnya, seperti pada suatu malam :

Gifta : "Mum, Nugra is not only my brother, but he is also my best friend!"

(tapi pantun dari Kakak ngga sempet dibalas oleh adik, setelah selang berapa hari, ternyata masih ada di

memori sang adik pas acara gather-together-brushing-teeth-time, pantun itu terbalas juga ..)

Nugra : "kak, before you said Iam your best friend, and you are my friend too"
(double terharu deh dengernya..)

dan biasanya setelah itu, yours trully share sama ayah dan wajah ayah yang lagi capek pulang kantor itu langsung keliatan sumringah, senyum yang agak jarang terlihat itu langsung ear-to-ear...the fatigue feeling all gone just in a second deh pokoknya.

Kemaren mami yang suka nguping anaknya ngobrol, sebenernya buka suka nguping sih cuma suka denger aja, Kakak lagi ngobrol sama temennya yang lagi slept-over di rumah karna baru selesai test, entah apa yang lagi di critain terdengarlah kalimat-kalimat sakti, dari anak perempuan berumur 7 tahun ini ..

"nobody's perfect, but the most important thing is the attitude. My mum always say that"

dengan perasaan tercengang, bangga dan sekaligus terharu ternyata apa yang kita ucapkan tidak pernah menjadi sia-sia, anak-anak itu mendengar, dan berbagi dengan orang lain.., lain halnya dengan sang adik dia selalu mengulang kata-kata ini :

"aku tau mi, kalo adiknya harus hormat sama kakaknya dan kakaknya harus sayang sama adiknya"

kata2 ini sebenarnya aku ucapkan pada saat mereka mau tidur, atau pas mereka berantem karna sesuatu hal, dan ternyata hal ini seringkali diucapkan kembali oleh mereka, dan ketika mereka yang mengucapkan ini menjadi lebih dalem artinya ketimbang aku yang ucapin, kayak alat pengingat buat this lousy mum yang seringkali alpa untuk lebih berhati-hati terhadap setiap ucapan, dan berusaha mengeluarkan kata2 yang produktif, daripada kata2 akibat senewen....tarik napas, lepas. I believe Lord will guide me in this matter.

to : my Gifta and Nugra
your wisdom really made my days, mum learned lots from you. as we always, say we love each other, and be there for each other every now and then...God will help us to get through all the things ahead us! just keep the faith dear...

jakarta, 14 Dec 2009
im writing this notes, while im missing you guys so much..

Kembali ke fitrah..:-)

2009-10-07T11:41:00.002+07:00

Pelajaran yang selalu di dapat setiap tahun, setiap kali lebaran pasti kita di tinggal oleh assistant handal untuk berkumpul bersama keluarga mereka, biasanya sih kita juga pergi ke luar kota jadi tidak begitu terasa karna kerjaan domestik tidak perlu kita kerjakan...hanya urusan take care anak2 aja.., dan urusan makan most of the time kita pasti bakalan "eat out" lah..ato delivery service dengan alasan blaaaaaaaaah...males aja sih sebenernya..

tapi tahun ini assistant memerlukan waktu yang lebih panjang dalam menuntaskan rasa kangen kepada keluarganya, cant blame her.. namanya juga family come first same like any of us lah kan, jadi udah deh...sampai holiday was over, beliau tetap belum dateng, system cuti shift terjadi sama suami, cukup repot tapi di nikmati..dan susah menjabarkan bagaimana cara menikmati pekerjaan yang ga habis2nya..yang jelas urusan delivery service sudah tidak bisa menjadi pilihan disamping kurang sehat..bisa merusak kesehatan dan dompet juga...

Akhirnya betul2 harus masak juga, beres2 rumah juga dan cuci baju...dan terus terang..owwww...Im completely failed...flat out!! dont know how to manage, akhirnya first thing first deh..yang penting anak2 beres dulu, ternyata I was nothing without my assistant..dan sangat tergantung sekali, baru merasa bahwa yours trully as mom ini bener2 tidak cukup pandai.., dan mengakui bahwa tidak semua bisa dikerjakan sendiri..as Im still working at the office well, its not a good reason either..., tapi paling tidak harus ada hal2 yang tidak harus tergantung dengan assistant..., ok ini aku ada daftar nya..yang kalo ada assistant ato tidak aku harus kerjakan sendiri...:

Pagi hari ...

1. Menyiapkan bekal anak2 setiap pagi.
2. Sarapan dan minuman.
3. Kamar tidur utama dan anak2...
4. Mandiin anak2..

Malam hari ...
5. Anak2 belajar..dan semua kegiatan terkait..
6. Cuci piring after dinner..
7. Prepare baju buat besok for the gang..termasuk ayah...

Sementara itu dulu kali ya...kalo masak cukup Sabtu, Minggu saja seperti biasa...doain ya..

love,
mum
sering berguru sama ibu2 yang sudah professional...urusan bekel2 sekolah, tks ya jeung Lesca..

Quicky...

2009-09-30T21:04:00.002+07:00

Pengen ngobrol banyak..tapi ntar deh ya..quicky aja..

- udah hampir 2 minggu ini makan di luar either delivery ato eat in..., yang ada puyeng badan plus dompet..he..he..

- si Mbak yang harus nya berjanji kepadaku tanggal 1 kembali, oleh karena kesibukannya di kampung jadi mundur jadi tanggal 6...sabaaaaar aja.. deh!

- yours truly bawa macem2 dari kampung...nih ya di simak : the best emping dari kota-gede, the best krupuk mie dari Purwokerto, the best bawang merah goreng dari Magelang, the best telor asin dari Purwokerto, the best krupuk cantir dari Purwokerto..tapi yang paling penting...on top of that...di rumah ada..the best hubby and the best and adorable children...

wis yooo...mengko tak sambung meneh, kalo ada yang mau oleh2 ku itu, aku memiliki jumlah yang lebih dari cukup untuk dishare..syaratnya gampang..dateng deh...:-)

love,

mum...

why actually the woman should go to work?

2009-09-09T10:46:00.004+07:00

Having learned some experience of a dear friend of mine who tragically stop working for some reason and regret it after that, and some celebrity gossip news on TV, how tragically they got divorce and husband got the custody of children...how so? little children they live separately from their mums..thats what happen. Im not playing "preaching-game" today maybe later...tomorrow :-), I just how misserable the mum and children both live separated...or probably the hubby also, but they are adult they make the decision..so thats it simple-but-complicated.

what i've been thinking in this kind of situation is that most reason that why those women have to work so hard for the family i dont know how hard but that the least that i got the impression from, thats including also the my dear friend. She worked so hard for the family, and i can say that she was the backbone, she went out of the island for like a month for the sake of "rejeki", and she did it in regular basis...till in the certain point that she felt very tired of being family back-bone, i dont know maybe she started to think of hhmm..."why should i be the one who responsible for the whole thing..or maybe I contribute to my family more than i should or more than my husband has done..or even my husband has done nothing but being my burden..."

During those time, She met other man with his all accessories that can charm any mid-age-woman.., she got trapped with those kinda-mumbo-lie-jumbo-story. I dont know exactly what happened but finally she decided to quit the job .... and tell everything to her hubby about her feeling....BUMP!! of course Husband got hurt, the wife got un-stable emotionally...and she said now its up to her hubby to support family life...she's tired thats all... she got 2 teenager by the way..

Make the story short, after a while the husband still cant got the job..she could not stay at home peacefully cause of she is worry of everything...and even more paranoid oohhh..dear, i wanna slap in her face actually but who am I? she started complaining that she got difficulty handle the children and so on..so on.....and she found herself not suitable just stay at home just be a house-wife.., now she's starting to hunt a new job....

I dont know how should i learn from this, the things is that i have a good reason why i should go to work...and Woman definetely cant afford mistake that it might happen concerning other man involved...(?) but anyway not to worrry to much I have Angels that GOD send to guard me day and night... GOD have Mercy on me....

First thing first....

2009-09-08T09:37:00.002+07:00

Karna satu dan lain hal...penyakit malas bikin blog ini jadi bedebu banget deh ya..., first thing first deh ya..bersih2 debu. Update dulu deh kesibukan yours truly kali aja ada yang kepengen tau..

1. Nemenin Kakak Gifta belajar math, english sama mandarin CA (mid semester lah), persiapan
yang dilakukan adalah belajar sabar dan menahan emosi jiwa....
2. Lagi heboh dan seneng ketemu2 temen jadul bukan karna FB tapi karna milist...biar berasa
muda..
3. Pengen bisa bikin cookies yang enak...dan laku di makan di rumah, yg sering terjadi adalah enak menurut diri sendiri dan dihabiskan sendiri...
4. Agak repot karna tadinya assistant 2 sekarang cuma 1..
5. Obsesi menjadi a great mum and wife....suit-suit...
6. Menikmati hidup..ini sebagaimana adanya dan belajar ngga komplen terus...
7. Doain ye...

Mungkin tulisan ini so dull kayak sop kurang pepper and salt.., like i said first thing first for a start..there you go..nice to see you again mommies..............

love and God bless you..
mum

kacamata..

2009-04-26T07:35:00.005+07:00

Berawal dari note Lao Shi Shue, guru Mandarin Kakak Gifta mengenai performance selamat 3rd Qtr, dan setelah hasil akademik ada note "Gifta can not see clearly to the whiteboard, She might need glasses.."

Waktu baca itu rasanya ngga percaya, masa sih kakak yang baru 7 tahun nanti bulan Juli udah harus pake kacamata. Kalo kami baru pake kacamata ketika sudah cukup besar, me pas SMA sementara Ayah pas udah kerja. Tapi setelah di pikir2 , memang Kakak kalo nonton TV suka deket2 banget...kalau kita tegur mundur tapi trus kedepan lagi terus aja begitu..

Dengan gaya dokter mata, Ayah coba test mata kakak, tapi di rusuhi terus sama sang Adik yang terus ikutan jawab, misalnya ayah pegang huruf C A T...langsung adiknya jawab..trus kakaknya ikut..jadi gejala ngga jelas, kita coba minta kakak Gifta minum juice wortel udah langsung di tolak mentah2.., kita mau ngga pengen anak kami berkacamata karna merasakan tidak enak kalo pakai kacamata..

Setelah di jadwal, akhirnya jawaban yang pasti kakak minus 1.75...kita terhenyak malu karna kok bisa kita ngga tau sampai sudah segitu minus nya...:-( duch maaf ya kak kalo kita cuma bisa marah kalo kakak nonton TV deket2 tapi melihat sebabnya...sorry kak mami salah..., tapi kakak tetep cantik kok pake kacamata...!!

Simple things...

2009-04-19T22:03:00.004+07:00

Banyak hal2 yang simple tapi selalu membuat kita bahagia, dan kehidupan ku yang selalu bikin happy adalah kalo anak2 sehat dan bahagia demikian juga si ayah harus happy juga...anak happy ..ayah bete..ya runyam juga urusannya...:-)

Simple thing#1
di hari libur pagi2, keliling2 karna rumah lagi di fogging pagi2 kita udah pergi karna pasti nanti asep dan kecoa pada dimana2, jadi kita limpahkan wewenang beres2 rumah ke 2 assitant kita yang baik2 hati itu.., dan biasa kita balik ke rumah setelah di kode..bahwa rumah udah beres..he..he..he..

+ ayah : kita kemana nih...olah raga aja yuk jalur hijau..
- Kakak : ngga mau ah...(lagii hobby banget nolak..)
+ mami : kita cari taneman aja..liat2 taneman di rumah bude Lenny..
(sambil ngarep di kasih lagi..karna kemaren habis dikasih sirih merah sama
aglonema jenis lipstik)
- Kakak : ngga mau ah..aku ngga takut ama taneman..karna ada cacingnya..
(padahal memang segala yang di propose juga judulnya ngga mau...)
+ Ade Nugra : ah kakak kayak baby aja..ama cacing takut..
(dengan gayanya yang cool...sambil tetep kosentrasi dengan NDS-nya..)

Kakak speechless...dengan gaya cool sang adik..sementara kita berdua (ayah n me..) senyum2 dengernya..

simple thing#2
Masih dalam lokasi keliling2..kita ngobrol ngalor ngidul..cuma one thing kalo sama ayah ngga bisa crita gosip ujung2nya bisa kita di omelin..jadi mesti jauh2 dech tuh crita gosip..hueheee...sementara yours trully paling seneng gosip sehat..(ada ngga sih gosip sehat..???), dan karna kemaren baru ketemu temen lama..crita anaknya baru lulus SMP langsung masuk boarding school di KL, dan aku baca di blog..baru lulus SD juga langsung masuk boarding school..so then ikut2an crita..brought up this subject dong..

+ mami : eh Ayah kemaren Sukma crita anaknya masuk boarding school lho di KL..
- Ayah : oooh... (ngga lebih ngga kurang dech tuh...)
+ mami : apa siap ya..anak2 itu masih kecil2 di boarding school..
(masih tetep pengen crita urusan ini...meskipun cuma dpt jawaban pendek..)
+Kakak : apa itu mam boarding school..
- mami : boarding school itu ya...blaaa..blaaaa...blaaa...
+ Kakak : ooooh itu mungkin karna ibu nya udah bosen ama anaknya...
- Ayah : ha...ha..bener tuh kak..
(deile segitunya..setuju ayah..)

akhirnya pagi itu kita ke pasar Cikini beli cendol di bungkus.....dan dilanjutkan breakfast Bakso Malang Cak Saman Kota (salah bukan sih?)....dan dessert ice cream..di cheese cake factory..

it is very simple..indeed, but i have a very good reason of being happy ...coz Im living by HIS Grace and always surrounded by my loved ones...and having you guys as true friends..Enjoy your happy days, God bless you all..

love
mami nuke
i am the diciples that Jesus loves...

Happy 5th Birthday our dearest Nugra...

2009-03-26T21:52:00.007+07:00

If i have to name one person with beautiful personality ..
I would say you ...my love..
If somebody ask whether i could imagine what kind of Man
You would be one day..
I would say ..Yes I could..
A Man..that God would be so proud of..

Happy Birthday my love You really complete us..
We love you..sooo much and definitely proud of you

My hope, pray and good faith always be with you...
You will be the Head not the tail..
You are blessed in everything that you do..
and in everything step that you make..
Amen..

Pohon Jambu ku..berkat ku...

2009-03-21T21:22:00.002+07:00

Mungkin karo buat orang lain pohon jambu ini biasa ..aja just like any other pohon jambu, ini juga yang ada dalam pikiran kami (mewakili ayah juga nih crita nya..boleh ya yah..:-). Tapi menjadi sangat istimewa di dalam hidup kami setelah...kami tau bahan pohon jambu ini juga bisa menggambarkan salah satu berkat yang tercurah dalam hidup kami ...(be ready for a pretty serious..story ..:-)

Setelah 4 tahun jadi kontraktor..di daerah tebet.., kami sangat merindukan untuk memiliki tempat tinggal kami sendiri juga di daerah yang sama..karna kami sungguh jatuh cinta dengan daerah ini...dekat darimana2 tapi persoalannya adalah..rumah2 di daerah ini cukup mahal untuk ukuran kami..dan kami tidak punya cukup uang untuk membeli rumah secara 'cash'..tapi kami percaya apa yang mustahil bagi kami tidak ada yang mustahil bagi DIA yang menjadi sandaran hidup kami...

Kami mulai dengan minta kepada DIA...secara spesifik bahwa "kami sungguh2 menginginkan rumah tinggal di daerah tebet dengan luas begini..dan yang begini..kalo boleh begini-begini" dan kami yakin ..tetapi setelah berjalan melihat2 rumah2 itu hati kami agak kecut..melihat harga2 yang ada.., akhirnya standard kami turun..untuk memiliki reyot seperti apapun juga asal didaerah tebet....

Dan ternyata ... rumah reyot itu tidak di ijin kan DIA untuk kami miliki.., padahal kami pun mau kalo memang itu yang akan di berikan buat kami.., inilah DIA yang selalu memberikan terbaik buat kami. Singkat cerita kami diberikan rumah yang kami tempati saat ini dengan mujizat yang tidak berhenti dari proses pembelian sampe menjadi milik kami sekeluarga.., karna rumah kontrakan kami sudah mau habis..maka kami harus cepat2 pindah dengan melakukan sedikit renovasi yang seadanya..yang penting bersih dan beres..

Pada saat renovasi itu rumah penuh debu..pohon jambu didepan rumah kami yang pada awalnya akan di boyong oleh pemilik rumah sebelumnya (sudah dilakukan proses pencangkokan..)...menjadi sangat tidak terpelihara..semua daun menjadi rontok dan seperti mau mati..dan pada saat itu kami sangat tidak punya waktu untuk memikirkan pohon jambu itu..karna sibuk memikirkan beres2 rumah ...

Setelah rumah agak beres...kami mulai melihat pohon jambu itu berbunga dan berbuah sangat lebat..dan manis sekali rasanya.., sampe2 pemilik lama kaget..karna pohon jambu itu tidak pernah berbuah sebelumnya..(kayaknya dia sedih bangeeeet..), seolah2 pohon jambu itu "welcoming our family "...itu yang kami rasakan..

Sampai saat ini sudah hampir 3 tahun, kami tidak dapat menghitung berapa kali pohon jambu itu berbuah..seperti berkat Tuhan yang selalu turun atas kami lebat atau tidak lebat itu tidak menjadi masalah..tapi dia selalu berbuah buat kami...Seperti mengingatkan bahwa hidup kami juga harus berbuah seperti pohon jambu itu ...manis dan dapat dinikmati..paling tidak bagi orang2 terdekat kami...terimakasih Tuhan buat bahasa-bahasa Mu yang indah...bagi kami ..

Ps. sampe saat sy menulis ini jambu di foto ini masih dalam posisi tetap..ada yang mau?

Happy Birthday our dearest Ayah..

2009-03-15T17:13:00.004+07:00

So many things..i wanted to prepare to celebrate your day..
Party at Mulia Hotel..
Fancy food..
Gorgeous drink..
Invitation for lots of friends and family..
So you..Ayah, could enjoy your birthday full of sweet memories.. :-)

But you told me..what you need only us..
to kiss you..to hug you..to pray for you..
wish you a Happy Birthday..

As you wished..we kissed you..we hugged you..
a very best wishes and prays for our dear Ayah..
we love you very much indeed...

luv,
mum, Gifta n Nugra..

Ps..tks for telling that the cake i made is good...i called it 'happy coco birthday just for you" (teteup si mami numpang narcis di segala occasions -:)

Would you teach me how to love YOU..?

2009-03-09T00:10:00.003+07:00

this is how i feel right just before you..
come clean..
i dont know how to make YOU happy..
i really want to..i just dont know how..

i tried to make my time only for YOU..
but all this and that..keep me away from YOU..
i miss YOU so much..soooooooo much..

i know YOU are same yesterday, today and tomorrow..
i am the one who changed..
please grab me..drag me..put me in YOUR ARMS..
and teach me how to serve YOU and make YOU happy..
i love YOU..really do..

from our kitchen with love...

2009-01-06T11:09:00.004+07:00

my very first black forest..kali ini yang jadi korban yang harus mengkonsumsi adalah nenek sebelah yang cucu2nya lagi pada kumpul..he..he..begitu jadi langsung dikirim..ngga tau rasanya kayak apa...

karna kata Gifta sagu keju-nya jempol dibalik jadi ngga berani ngirim...,

this love wrapped for Gift&Nugra's teachers..."from our kitchen with love..."

dalam rangka menyalurkan keinginan yang meng-gebu2 untuk bisa bake-mengbake.., akhirnyaseluruh rumah harus ikutan repot...dan orang2 terdekat harus terpaksa jadi tukang cicip yang ngga pernah berani bilang ngga enak..huaaahaaa... seperti misalnya waktu bikin coklat muffin si pencicip adalah tukang sampah yang lewat depan rumah setiap hari..disuguhi air putih + coklat muffin pada saat ngambil sampah di rumah..he..he..katanya enak...(mana lah berani bilang ngga enak...)

Crita hari Sabtu jalan kaki pagi sama ayah, pulang mampir ke pasar tebet barat yang ternyata cukup lengkap sebagai TBK meskipun ngga selengkap T*T*n lah..tentunya.., tapi untuk bikin black forest aja..sih lumayan lah...ada..akhirnya uang di dompet ayah harus melayang untuk ambisi ku membuat kue..karna diriku ini memang sengaja ngga bawa dompet..he..he..he..(thank you ya..yah..) cukup ribet dan keringetan ternyata bikin black forest...tapi hasil nya huahaaa....silahkan disimak..ngga berani comment dech..

Project berikutnya bikin kue kering....semua orang aku telpon termasuk ibu lesca, semua tak tanya tips-nya sampe akhirnya aku puyeng sendiri karna semua orang punya cara dan pengalaman sendiri..halaaaaaaaaaaahh...bikin bingung..ayooooooo mang...hajar aja... namanya juga belajar...

hasilnya..menurut putriku yang baik dan suka berterus terang..."kastengel nya enak mam.., nastarnya juga enak..., sagu keju...hhmm...dia tunjukin jempol kebawah"...ha..ha..ngga papa namanya juga belajar..tapi tak makan enak juga...ah Gifta aja kali seleranya ketinggian..(menghibur diri...nich si mami)..

mari kita simak orang norak lagi narcis....(norak berani narcis lagi!!!)

tahun 2009...

2009-01-05T11:47:00.003+07:00

tahun 2009

lebih mendengar suara Tuhan..

daripada suara sendiri..

lebih belajar apa yang menjadi maunya Tuhan..

daripada mauku sendiri..

bukan jadi orang yang hebat ato pinter...

tapi lebih jadi orang yang nurut...

bukan jadi istri yang hebat..

tapi jadi istri yang tunduk dan cakap...

bukan jadi ibu yang berwibawa..

tapi yang bijaksana dan penuh kasih..

nurut apa yang menjadi kehendak TUHAN..

bagiku..dan keluarga ku..

Amin..

2008-12-22T12:36:00.002+07:00

i came to YOU...

i didnt even know why im here..

what drag me here ..why im gone this far..

i feel so low very low before YOU...

what the worse and even more ashamed that make me feel..

YOU still love me no matter what..

am i giving up my hope in YOU..??

NO, NEVER..

even in the lowest point of my life..

what i have is only..

Love, Hope and Faith in YOU..

Thank you for loving me..abundantly..

Keinginan nge-BAKE...

2008-12-14T20:01:00.010+07:00

si-padat-berisi-(insteadofbantet)-heart-marmer-cake(?)

apa-boleh-buat-wafel

Week-end ini sibuk banget dech ama..ada perpisahan Novie yang pindah ke Jerman ikut suami, Farewell di-adain apartment mereka di F**r Se*s*n (ini mestinya ada crita tersendiri...karna ada hubungan sama mouse-trap-story), ....trus kawinan sodara ayah..(sodara ai juga ya..) di kebun Jeruk Sabtu Pagi, trus siangnya...'copy darat'..sama ibu-ibu muda blogger di rumah jeng Arie (ai..doang yang tuwir...he..he...) dalam rangka menyambut kedatangan tante isya liburan ke Indo....thank you ya udah di undang...dengan sok tau nya yours trully ini nge-gaya ama ayah.."yah..hari sabtu ini dari kondangan aku langsung ke Arie ya..mau ketemuan ama ibu2 dari blog nih..." ketauan ya noraknya..

Cerita mengenai anak dan masakan masih menjadi topik yang paling ter-mutakhir.., saking asyiknya kita ngga tau kemana dua laki2 bule itu pergi kemana ..minjem istilah Bianca nyebut monsieur "the host" Nicholas papa-tole dan monsieur "the guest of honor" Regis papa-celia ...yang ternyata pergi ngupi-2..mungkin pusing..liat ibu2 pada ngobrol ngga abis-2...he..he. n'est ce pas Monsieurs? :-)

Lanjut crita dari ngobrol bener2 kesempatan buat ai..berguru, terutama urusan bikin makanan..banyak yang harus dipelajari dan di follow-up ....

Menagih resep butter cream buat decoration..dari Ewoy yang katanya mirip ice-cream tapi padet...

Minta di ajarin martabak manis ama bu boma aka jeng lesca..tapi mesti beli cetakan dulu..kali ye..tanpa cetakan resep tak bergune..

Sementara itu latihan dulu..bikin2 bolu..dasar, dengan sasaran utama bikin cup-cake or/and muffin, dan jangka menengah bikin kue dekorasi selambat-lambatnya bulan Maret tahun depan..(ck...ck..ck..heubat..!!)

Saking semangat nya mau nge-bake! langsung cari resep yang paling simple "cake marmer" yang konon kabarnya gampang banget.., begitu baca..eiya gampang banget nich kayaknya..(read=sok tau!!) cuma gini doang..kocok telor gulal sampe ngembang...terus masukan tepung..bla..bla..bla..ah..bisa dech ah!!! gini doang..if Lisa can do it..so can I (makin menjadi sok taunya...he..he..he..) cerita di mulai nich..menyiapkan tepung-telor-and-the-gang, for your info karna yours trully ini completely amateur..jadi mixer juga seadanya..tapi kebetulan semua ada..jadi mulai dech nimbang..tepung, gula..dan akhirnya mulai mixing..pas mixing duch..pegel juga ya....

Eh sebelum itu ya..pas baca "emulsifier.." aku liat di koleksi ku ada 'pengembang kue TBM dan Ovalet.." hhhmmm...jadi yang mana ya..?? akhirnya aku sms my-dear-fren-called-sang maestro "jeng emulsifier itu TBM ato Ovalet..?"....lama ngga di jawab..ah sibuk kali nih si cantik lagi ngajar.., trus kata assistant handal memberikan masukan.."kalo kemaren sih...pake baking soda ama cream of tar-tar bu..".."oh gitu ya..mbak, ya udah masukin dech..sama aja..kalii ya..." akhirnya jadi lah di masukan ke dalam situ sesuai dengan saran mbak-ku...

Eh ada jawaban dari sang maestro he..he.."TBM dan Ovalet..sama".."y..ri..gue masukin baking soda ama cream of tar-tar..sama ngga?"..."laen..." ya udah dech pasrah...bantet..dech..hi..hik...ini penampakan si padat-berisi-(insteadofbantet)-heart-marmer-cake (?)....not easy to give up..begitu kata pepatah..akhirnya mencoba satu resep lagi dengan cara yang laen..tapi telornya dingin..eh kesalahan fatal terjadi..telor-gula-mentega..langsung di mix...di tengah2 mix ai udah curiga nih..wah lebih parah dech dari yang pertama huaahaa.....langsung ganti haluan dech ga jadi bikin cake..."udah dech mbak .." kita buat stock adonan pancake aja...bayangin coba..jam 12 siang bikin pancake kan ketauan..."katro.." ..im opened from judgement dech..pokoknya... silahkan di simak hasil dari "apa-boleh-buat-wafel"....

Pokoke nih..Sabtu depan..aku bakal coba lagi..sampe beres...., learn from the mistake!! He...he..lama2 nich majikan di usir dari dapur sendiri..kalo bikin kerusakan terus di dapur..he..he.. "say a prayer for me please...."

Cerita long week-end..

2008-12-09T12:33:00.004+07:00

Libur panjang ..3 hari, karna kakak masih test semester jadi rencana mesti temenin kakak review belajar buat SA minggu ini..

Sabtu

rencana mau breakfast di Mulia sama anak2 dan tante efa..tapi kenapa ngga jadi ya? aduh sorry tante efa..
rencana belajar..baru sebentar buka buku, ke-inget mesti belanja buat bikin ketupat dan lain2..ya udah yuuuuuuk...ke hypermart, sebelum itu ngajak2 anak2 makan dulu dech di Xiao Long Bao di Grand Indo.., habis itu grocerries dan cari cetakan wafel karna si kakak mau bikin sarapan buat minggu pagi..eh pas mau balik liat sate padang..(lupa udah makan xiao long bao!!) beli 2 bungkus..dasar!!
Nyampe rumah capek lah..toh masih ada minggu dan senin buat belajar...nonton TV dan tidur..

Minggu

pagi, rileks trus mami ke gereja, pulang mampir..ke glodok..jauh banget ya, nyampe rumah udah sore banget, kakak udah cape nungguin mami ngambek ngga mau belajar..ya sudah tidur!! "i dont like test.." kata kakak "me neither.." kata mami...:-)

Senin

Waduh harus belajar nih.., tapi kakak mau belajar naik sepeda roda 2, ya sudah sepeda dulu..toh nanti si Lao shi dateng, ama Lao shi aja kali belajarnya.. mami juga pengen santai2 sebentar. Lao shi dateng..kakak belajar mami nonton gosip ..adek-ayah main game..
Eh Lisa-Regis-Celia mau ke rumah buat ketupat dinner, Lisa's just like my sister..no need too much covered-up the house lah..apa adanya, makanan udah tinggal dikit..coba dateng agak siang..lis..masih banyak dech..he..he.., we had a good time..."simpel dinner-just like family"kata Regis..ah mas Regis, bisa aja..maksudnya pas-pas an..ha.ha..tapi si cece..seneng banget..he..he..ngga mau pulang ketemu Kitty, Lapin.., princess, Couchon..its good to see you guys...we still owe you a better home dinner or lunch..lets set up the time while you guys here..

Akhir cerita ga belajar he..he.. like mother like daughter indeed!! Gitu dech cerita..our little family...no fancy holiday, nothing special.. and just enjoy day to day spending our time together..just do the-very-simple-routine-things, the least that we are together..that's all matter, isnt it?

the Complicated Mandarin Language...

2008-11-27T15:50:00.006+07:00

Complicated ..at least to me, i found it difficult to catch with this subject..whenever i am able to comprehend the lesson then i could not pronounce the word corectly, once i asked teacher in Gifta's school.., what if this subject is too difficult for my kid (3 times a week with once test every week...writing chinesse character!!!) and these are for 6 years old kid..i've been thinking am i wrong take this class or even the school? but thats the only school in the option right now...we have background why we chose this school. back to my question to senior teacher (she also one of the owner), she got a very wise answer..."Mandarin is difficult for everybody..not only for your kid..as long as she doesnt have any problem with English..just give it a try, but for those kid who has difficulty in English..i suggest just drop, and shift to Bahasa Indonesia.."

The reason why i chose Mandarin (they have Mandarin and Bahasa Indonesia Class...with the same category) because i thought i have paid expensive enough for the school fee so then i have to get more and at the same time, it happened to be my girl's choice..coz she loves mandarin.., but it turned out the mummy has to be more active..so as my girl so then i studied..using the same book. till sometime i have to check the homework after they slept..slightly read the book..and go over..that's worse..Man...really lost in translation..

So many stories about this subject, i really need help so then my girl could follow not only for getting the points itself but to even deepter, so then one day she could talk Mandarin and also write..(wuiiiiiiiih..Mum's ambition all right dech!! ) i dont really much care about score/marks, i just want my girl enjoy learning the subject and good result in the end of the day.

make the story short..i got the young talented Lao shi (=teacher) to have Mandarin session at home "one hour every Monday". The first day, i worked half day the purpose of meeting this lao shi at home and have some points of view ..how this is going..the method she used and everything.. so far just great..

I got good feed back at first , she said that my girl easy to comprehend but need practice to pronounce the word..she compared..bla..bla.., the next week my girl got 100 score for test..good girl, but along the week that i have to leave her for business trip..she got low score for that week test.., it seems this Lao shi pretty disappointed about the result..while to me yeaw..a bit upset but its ok i didnt make a big deal of it.., its not end of the world..still plenty of time. Last Monday, our mbak said that Lao shi need to talk to me..wondering what about? then i called her..

+ Hi Lao shi did u ask me to call you? ada apa?
- Iya tante..itu Gifta tadi aku ajarin 2 crita tapi kayaknya satu aja belum kepegang padahal udah 1 jam lebih..
+ Oh ya ngga papa lah.. kita coba aja...(i am the Mum who willing to take any chance for my girl)
- Iya..trus kayaknya Gifta kurang cepet nangkep....
+ (me speechless...think this young teacher lady has been crossing the line...)
- maksudnya kurang cepet kalo nangkep Mandarin.. (she added ..)
+ ngga papa lah..di coba aja.. (i was really..reallly...uncomfortable with her judgement, she just underestimated my daughter....)
+ no worries..Lao shi

But after that conversation i was really in deep anger...and got no nerve to tell Ayah..he would be pist off for sure..., so i've been thinking of terminate this mandarin session at home..and i dont care if she is the best mandarin teacher in the world.., I AM THE MOTHER I COULD DO EVEN BETTER THAN HER..EVEN I DONT KNOW MANDARIN..., what do you think Ladies...Mummies...? any idea...

Note :
somehow mum being so emotional..if thing to do with the children, but have to be wise to see the problem from different angle..mum decided to keep the mandarin session at home. Sorry Lao-shi for me being so emotional!! if you've got the chance to read this entry...

Kaki..the autumn fruit..

2008-11-26T16:31:00.004+07:00

we had really nice lunch at very traditional tempura restaurant at Takamatsu-country side of Japan..love the food.., even the rice was really yummy..all fresh.."anago-ebi-taco-daicon-hamachi fishi-and vegies" and traditional..hhmm..this country is really something so neat..organize and polite.., dont tell Indonesian is very polite and kind.., they are really more polite..kind i dont know... :-) very strict to the rules i may say..now wonder they became very strong economically..

in the end of lunch..the old lady who also owns the restaurant serve and cook together with his hubby which i found romantic way to spend the oldies..ha..ha....offered us fruit.., we simply say yes..we've been told that was autumn fruit called "kaki"...funny name isnt it? the first time ..when it served the fruit just deja vu rembering me of kesemek fruit when i was little..which really difficult to find also these days.., but "kaki fruit" tastes a bit different with kesemek that we know..sweeter but the texture similar.., since then we almost had kaki fruit all the way .."this is kaki..fruit.." and we proudly say.."oh yeah..we also have in Indonesia...we called kesemek..." the i would heard..."oooh ok.....what mek?" what a ugly name they thought probably..

we got a chance to see the view of country side..and i saw the orange fruit all over the place with no leave just fruits all over the branches..just like "fake" ...oh thats kaki fruit, we just like a couple of kids (me and my boss)...take the pictures..the one that i took just like the wild one..like no one has them..so beautifuuuuuuull...its just in between autumn leaves change to red..there you go the fruit tree was there...

after we got to Tokyo we just like haunted by kaki fruit stories..., one of big boss told the story that one Japanese..brought kaki fruit seed to indonesia..and plant there.."oh i see that kesemek was coming from..." becoz the climate pretty much different so they grow differently...hhhmm..pretty classical..dont you think? like foreign people who stayed in indonesia too long... dont get offended could be positif ...and could be either way..

How come i've never heard any story of our fruits..mango, salak, durian..just any story...but Hey i took so much time talking rubbish...who cares anyway just the fruits....!! KESEMEK anyone...???

Lousy Mum all right...

2008-10-23T13:01:00.005+07:00

No matter how hard i tried to be a good Mum..still sad story indeed coming around in between managing my home and works..home means children and their activities ...it happened like yesterday

Gifta Mandarin Small Test Story..soon i knew that Gifta would have Mandarin small test, on the way back home from work i called one the mum that i believe a-very- reliable- source for any information related to school. She told me the material for test..would page 53 to 59 for the day after tomorrow, hhmmm...so i still have time then..i usually prepare vocabulary flash card that i made myself related to this page to help my girl to study not always..if still have time. On the way Ayah called that the children want McD for dinner, they didnt want to eat the whole day coz they were not feeling well...so then when ayah called, they asked for McD and Ayah was delegating to me..see the SOP really works here...what-a-busy-after-office-hour-duty :-)

with bag of Mc D, i got home Nugra's only want chips, Gifta some of chicken and rice..hhmm...they're not fully recovered from fever...so they still lost their appetite...i feel sad, tired yes but more to sad to see my lovely ones pada lemes begitu...i decided tomorrow Gifta doesnt have to go to school, Nugra has to go for Photo session...He was going to wear the Bali traditional Custom ..He's so excited..so then ok, that would be ok ..i think. The next day Gifta insisted to go to school, as usual i dropped off before ofis everything normal..until 10 o'clock i"m got a call from ita (one of the mums at school) that "nugra-muntah-muntah" di sekolah..."keliatannya lemes banget"...i feel like going home but i could not so i call my assistant to pick up my boy...., i called home my assistant said that he only wanted to eat apple didnt want anything else..i feel so frustrating that i couldn't be with him...

the story goes..sorry if its bored you to death, i tried to leave early but traffic put me in damage..i got home 7.30...straight to business.., see how's the kids doing..specially nugra...he didnt have fever but still "lemes-lemes", and he went to bed early with his dad..while Kakak would have test..so then had to prepare..there you go.. i got my flash card already "from -shua ya till yuan quan" if you know what i mean..starting.."brush teeth" then my girl say " shua ya".."fast" then my girl said "kuai".. i could see the Gifta was tired..she said mum i am tired.., i asked to sit in my lap..to continue.., still tired continue in bed..she got spirit you know..!! i am so proud of her...

In the morning, I walked with her to the class...its full already..i wanna make sure that she's all rite, she didnt make family tree home work i said its ok i would talk to her teacher... then i heard over two-mums conversation about mandarin small-test...it turned out the test was not from the page that we prepared but different..its from "the-worksheet"... WHAT!!!!!!

without invitation i joined the conversation.. "R u Sure??" yes.., what about page 55-59 ? i insist alias ngotot.."its homework" ..OMG...i felt really bad, i didnt how to react....just feeling guilty all over to my girl. i should have checked to other mum..but its too late...nothing i could about it..

i said sorry to my Gifta.., it was completely mum's fault ... it seems she didnt worry at all, i should learn from her...

this thing would not go away..its still going around in my head, i saw my watched it was 3 oclock oh my baby girl already home by now so then i called her..

+ hi Gifta..what are you doing?

- im doing my home-work mum..its math

+ so how's your test today? can you do it?

- hhhmm..kayaknya sih ngga bisa... (with-no-regret-tone)

+ its ok lah..maafin mami ya..

- ok mum..

most important thing ...that she is all right..!! but still I am a lousy mum all right!!!

Ade paksa kakak senyum...

2008-09-24T17:33:00.005+07:00

Lho kakak kok cemberut sih?? ayoo senyum dong kak...

Nugra..ayo dong bilang kakak senyum..

sesuai instruksi..nugra "ask" kakak to smile...

"ayooooooooo kakak Gifta senyum...ayo kak...." kata nugra membujuk setengah memaksa...:)

"Kakak udah senyum nich..ayoo cepet di foto"

berhasil..dech misi nugra bikin kakak senyum..

look at their smile..very look a like..dont you think?

Kangen...

2008-09-17T16:21:00.002+07:00

Kangen..banget dech sama kakak juga adek.., kangen ini makin membuncah..ceile membuncah kayak ombak, pada saat teringat kita ngomel2 ke mereka..terutama sama kakak pas belajar.., kenapa ya..aku kok ngga bisa lebih sabar ke anak2...??? meskipun udah di coba...sabar tapi tetep senewen..

yang ada kalo inget jadi merasa bersalah ngga karu2an...sedih, kangen ...pengen cepet pulang..mau minta maaf..

Maafin mami ya kak..., mami ngga marah2 lagi dech...

Pokoknya mami ngaku dech mami yang salah!!! kakak kan pasti cuma niru..cetak ayah ato mami..

Mami janji dech..bantuin mami ya..biar ngga marah-marah lagi, biar jadi mami yang baik dan bijaksana...

Love,
mami

Mengapa kau meninggalkan ku...

2008-09-04T10:02:00.006+07:00

sebuah perjuangan untuk memiliki mu baik mental maupun spiritual..apa iya betul engkau cukup berharga untuk di miliki..., warna merah yang begitu menarik perhatian ku. Kalo boleh terus terang.... aku tidak benar2 memerlukan ..bahasa gaul "ga butuh-butuh amat dech!" tapi kau tau kan waktu itu aku lagi stress jadi perlu pelampiasan...yang sehat.. :-)

Dengan segala pertimbangan akhirnya ..kukeluarkan dompet ku demi dirimu.., dengan bangga aku memilki mu...meskipun sebenarnya kurang cocok dengan penampilan ku yang jauh dari mewah..tapi tak apa habis gimana dong aku sudah kadung jatuh cinta padamu..

Tapi mengapa oh mengapa (dangdut banget ngga sich?).. engkau begitu cepat menghilang...baru aku tarok di ruang tamu kantor orang..trus langsung menghilang tanpa bekas, tanpa pengakuan satupun pernah melihat...masa kau begitu magic sih...!! tapi maafin aku dech aku yang teledor mungkin yang "menemukan mu" jauh membutuhkan dirimu dari aku...apapun alasannya...

aku sering merindukan mu.., tapi untuk berjuang memiliki mu kembali...no thank you...!!!!!!!! O2-life punya ayah...sudah jadi pelipur lara ku....jadi dont get the wrong idea, nothing personal..its completely something to do with my wallet..thats all... bye my dear...sorry i lost you..

my dream

2008-08-28T16:23:00.003+07:00

Kita pasti punya keinginan ya.. , impian lah..lebih persisnya meskipun kadang-kadang keinginan kita berubah-ubah terus ngikutin situasi hati ato mood. yours trully ini biangnya ganti-ganti keinginan alias labil..sebentar kepengen ini sebentar pengen itu..alhasil nyontek istilah "efa" nich pesenannya ngga dateng2..kayak kita dateng ke restoran nich pesen bakmi goreng..eh ga jadi deng nasi goreng aja..eh ngga jadi soto ayam kayaknya enak nich..udah di catet apa si pelayan berubah lagi..jadi nasi rames... ( ini pasti di warteg dech bukan restoran!!)..kata si pelayan capeeeeeeeeeeeeekkk..dech..

Konon kabarnya kalo demikian keinginan kalo berubah-rubah...ya itu persis kayak cerita di warteg itu ngga terwujud-wujud, nach cerita dari itu maka si mami labil ini pengen "wannabestableperson" yang tau apa yang di kepengenin..dengan diskusi sana diskusi sini...maksud nya ngrumpi sana ngrumpi sini!! baca sana baca sini, akhirnya bikin dech apa yang pengen di capai..dengan rentang waktu berapa lama (caielllllllllleeeeeeeee....suit-suit...), dan kira apa yang mesti di lakukan...ketemulah rumus keinginan 4/4 5K (efa you must know what i mean...we set up this for pretty some time right...?) dan sekarang gimana cara achieve-nya nich...

katanya gini-gini..ngga boleh nyerah..."dont-ever-give-up-dont-ever-quit-motto"..praktek dech nich critanya.., keliatannya di awal2 waduch keliatannya lancar nich .. bakal bisa nich...lho..kok tersendat-tersendat, ngga boleh nyerah..., terus ... maju...kok jadi capek banget dan keteteran nich..wah something wrong kayaknya...terlalu ngotot ampe badan pegel sana pegel sini...apa iya mesti begini nich...?

Kenapa susah ya..?? apa yang aku kepengen ngga ada di menu?? ah masa sih ngga ada di menu? kan masih di dunia...pasti ada lah ya..., pasti satu titik kesimpulan..yang masih belum tersimpul.., i just let it flow, but the dream's still there...

very simple dream...wanna have more time with my children, have time to take care of the house and dear hubby (hubby first? confusing :-) ... recently i felt guilty leaving my children all alone only with our assistants...specially when they are growing up now they need even more attention from me their mum...accompany them doing their home works instead of only checking ..while they were ready to go to bed... :( for some people maybe its not a big deal..but it is for me..so this is my dream for me...a strong one, a very strong or strongest one i guess among any other dream....

is it just me...or its a normal having this feeling...?

Thank you for the friendship...

2008-08-27T23:35:00.001+07:00

The only reason that i put this picture is just to say thank you to all my friends at previous office which i share experience so much with them both personally and professionally. It was just like yesterday that i saw you guys everyday...sharing everything as a team, having lunch...hhmm..lot of places..Mie Ayam bawah, Sate ..Bakso di Block S, Padang Uni Taraso..Warung ijo..hhhmm...never been there i always refused to come..i always have a good reason for that " mendingan makan di rumah gue..."..and last but not least Paregu....(kapan nich...?)

Times goes so fast, i had to make the decision..it was really hard but its more about choices..life is about choices right? Leaving you guys was very difficult..the place-where-everyone-knows-my-name, where- i-have-unofficial-mom's-club (enny...yully you are always in my heart ..i love you and i miss the time that we shared together!!) and at the same time i could work professionally and get paid (what's more important than that?)..but things had been changed whether we like it or not..but anyway..there will never be a good reason to end the friendship...

Iam not sure if you read this..but i'd like to....

thank you for your friendship...

thank you for your support during difficult time

thank you for your Love..

thank you for laugh and cry with me...

and

last but not least thank you for home theatre ....

we all enjoy the farewell present....

I love you....

Pertanyaan yang tak dapat terjawab...

2008-08-25T10:55:00.004+07:00

Tadi malem..pas lagi belajar sama si kakak.., ade bebas dech tuh..karna memang masih TK ya de' masa mau belajar..he..he..

si kakak tanya dech sama mami...

+ mami sayang kakak ngga?
- sayang dong..masa tanya gitu?
+ sayang mana nugra apa kakak?
- dua-duanya mami sayang...
+ kalo mami harus milih satu, mami pilih..siapa..? harus pilih satu mam...
- (......ooooooooooooooooohhh...GOD....)
- im really in a deep silent..

ada yang punya pengalaman sama?? mesti jawab apa sich..yang bijaksana tapi membesarkan hati anak, to make each of them special..to be honest..aku ngga jawab...just silent mode.

To my children :
you know that mum loves you so much..unconditionally.. Gifta you are my first baby..first baby alwalys special..and Nugra you complete me...I love you both with all my heart and soul.., no one loves you the way i do.. (sorry ayah..i think its true..he..he..)

Mami punya assistant handal ...

2008-08-25T10:34:00.003+07:00

Ritual habis pulang kantor..langsung check-check..buku2 dan PR anak2.., try hard to be a good Mum (wink...) biasanya check punya kakak dulu.. (duch anak SD..kok pelajaran kayak gitu ya...)...done udah selesai..

Gantian punya Nugra... smile.., nugra juga udah bikin tanpa bantuan mami, tinggal check aja..lho..kok!! i was the second person who checked nugra's home work..who took over my job??? hhhmmm...it must've been ayah lah.. lho kok signature-nya gini..?? (we have to put our signature on the homework paper..its compulsory from school..)

while i was wondering....there was voice..

+ aku udah check homework ade..udah bener semua kok mam...
- trus ini tanda-tangan siapa?
+ iya trus aku tanda-tangan dech langsung disitu...
- oh terimakasih kakak.., bantuin mami ya..good girl..
(terharu dech bow..!!!)

So sweet...she was acting mum checking her brother homework...!! aduch mami sekarang udah punya assistant handal nich...thank you..kak..!!!

conversation that made me smile...part-1

2008-08-19T10:38:00.002+07:00

Gramatical Vs Ethical
Gifta story-time : evening- set place : car

Gifta : in english class, my fren (she mentioned girl name) say like this..."the socks Mr. Danny
(teacher's name) is smelly)..." its not right..., right mum?
me : yes ... and its not nice and polite...
Gifta : ya...seharusnya kan..."Mr Danny's socks are smelly, why do you change your socks...."
me : ##%%&&&&&& (speechless...)

Nugrah Vs Ngalah..
TIS - evening - pick restor for dinner

we were in TIS for dinner as usual we let children decide the place to eat...

me : ok .. what do you want eat?
Gifta : i want that restaurant mum...i want eat noodles...
( she pointed Dutch resto...)
Nugra : i want pizza hut..
Gifta : bosen...pizza
Nugra : aku mau pizza...
me : ga berantem dech..you guys decide..
Gifta : ya udah lah..aku ngalah..
me : gitu dong pinter..
Nugra : aku juga dech ngalah...
me : waduh pinter juga nugra..jadi kita makan dimana nich kalo 2-2 nya ngalah...
Nugra : pizza hut..

Living in fear or Living in Peace...

2008-08-15T14:02:00.005+07:00

One evening in Excelso Grand Indo, my two colleagues and me have casual business meeting, from business finally we jump also talk about family and life... children and problem.., from cap cay topic..brought the topic how often we got angry...??? i claimed that im very seldom got angry in terms of arguing or yelling... specially at home.., and my fren said thats probably you've not been in stage of facing something that you fear the most...

those line..going around my head have i been facing the problem that i fear the most?? what i fear the most?....so recently i have been facing that things..who did i react? ... oh yeah..like any other human being..panic, sad, frustrating...you name it, didnt want see anyone...escalating the work only the purpose of forgeting the problem..but it seems like a ghost chasing me around.., the question is why i could get angry...like my fren said, his theory was wrong or me being abnormal..not able to get angry..

everything so meaningless..., like all the worth thing has been taken away from me...which i know thats not true..i was lost, so i became living in a fear...that i would never ever dreamed about it. i came to my pray..i feel THORN..."Lord, this is me alone with my weakness and sin...i believe i have faith and love for YOU..but as i know that YOU love me even more..., please come rescue us..." but the only thing that i could hear in my faith is just..."LEAVE everything to ME and TRUST ME.." nothing more nothing less...

instead of living in fear..i choose living in Peace with HIM alone.., if HE allow all this thing happened i believe you have a great plan for me... like a mother of MOSES...She was a great mother...then here i am Lord with my weakness and sin..THANK YOU, its my great honor to serve you Lord. again THANK YOU..for your WISDOM and GUIDANCE...

Crita-crita bulan July...

2008-07-29T15:21:00.008+07:00

Wuich...banyak debu nich kayaknya, karna ibu pemilik blog lagi rada kocar kacir kebanyakan acara..(gaya..yah..) pertama-tama karna sawahnya pindah, jadi mesti nyangkul dari awal.., jenis taneman sama..tapi ngerjain nya mesti rada beda..karna kulture udah pasti beda...

Lebih dari itu..yours trully penulis blog ini..kebanyakan mau alias kebanyakan gaya dan cita2 akhirnya lebih sering kecapekan dech..pegel sana pegel sini jadi ngga sempet.."narcis" disini dech akhirnya..

Tapi ini tidak boleh dilewatkan..karna emang penting...hari pertama anak2 sekolah..yyyyyyyyyyeeeeeeeeeeeaaachh.. Gifta udah SD..lho, dan Nugra..TK..times goes so fast..they were just babies..now my girl has been able to spell "principal...teacher...policeman...hour...mouth..d ..el..el.." hebring ya..siapa dulu dong mami nya..he..he..

Ini lho photo-photonya... ....sedikit tapi...lumayan lah..buat di inget dan di tarok di blog...

Kakak Ita..SD..waduch kak..kok kayak anak SMP sich....???

R u sure you are 6 years old my dear...??

Ini daftar student di kelas Kakak Ita...

Ini ade Nugra yang udah Tk..semangat dong de..!!!

Psst...ternyata Nugra cukup popular lho..!! among the girl??????

Ini rules di kelas ade Nugra...

Its piece of cake..lah ya de....Nugra is the rule

Btw, tanggal 13 July Kakak ulang tahun yang ke -6, Di Ulang tahun yang ke-6 kakak belajar..artinya sederhana.., aduch Mami aja kadang2 masih kerepotan..tapi kakak udah lebih ngerti ya...!!! Makasih ya...kak...buat sikap-sikap yang luar biasa...

Happy Birthday Kakak..

My hope, pray, and love always be with you

You are always special to me and you always will be..

You are my best friend.., I love you my darling....

Sorry for sometime..i have let you down..

but keep the faith..that the best thing from Above always come along..

Love..is binding us..forever and ever..as mom and daughter..

and also a very good friend and her best friend... I love you sweetheart...

lovely card..from Gifta

2008-06-12T23:18:00.003+07:00

i believe every Mum would feel the same as i did when i got this lovely card from Gifta on Mother Day..., maybe the whole class made this for their mum..but still..made me special..thank you Gifta...

beautiful isnt it? nothings compares to this...

even Hallmark could not compete with this one...
thank you sweetheart...

Mami selalu check ...

2008-06-12T14:57:00.005+07:00

the picture of nugra for you..

its always nice receiving compliment from people specially from the one that we care and love..and we were young..we young..once of course we often got lost becoz of those compliments...(read : rayuan2 gombal..) we enjoyed them even though sometimes it completely false..but we loved it anyway... but thing changed when i met someone today i called him ayah who seldom gave this rayuan2 from "once-upon-the-time-period" till ....now he..he.. its just like you expect "hujan emas" eh..itu mah bukan jarang ya..ngga pernah ya...he..he..

Since became Mum..i always try my best to put my feet the ground...(ceile..suit--suit) but turned out i've been receiving lots of the most genuine compliments ever from my loved ones...my children..like for food we prepared..or just the unbelievably understanding attitude...

one touchy conversation with nugra at 11 o'clock nite when i just got home from meeting...(wuich..kesan gimana gitu ya..jadi malu!!)

+ Hi .. Nugra..kok belum bobo...?
(with-guilty-mum-feeling!!! for real)

- Belum..lagi tunggu mami..
so sweet..but made me even felt guilt to my bones..

+ Nugra, mami mau ngomong nich.., mami minta maaf ya.., kalo akhir2 ini mami pulang terlambat terus.., tapi ini cuma sementara kok..nanti juga pulang cepet lagi..
(hopefully pretty soon...keep my faith...)

- iya mi, ngga papa kok...
(wisdom from 4 years old boy that you could not even imagine...)

+ sekarang bobo sama mami yuukk

- ok...
- mami ...

+ ya kenapa nugra..?

- mami itu selalu check ngga pernah cross....
(he learned that check for the right answer and cross from the right one.. ouch!!!)

oh boy...Nugra my darling..when i felt that i gave him lack of time but in return he gave me the world..thank you my boy..it meant a lot to me, im so sorry if mum still has to spend so much time for outside the house.. but its only temporary i promise you....thank you for marking me as check instead of cross even though..mum deserve cross...dont you think? :-(

Too Much...

2008-05-11T22:11:00.004+07:00

Too much is not good, and some are so true.., but some are exception..like too much money..(ever heard thing like that..? Arrrrrrrghh..never been so far...), i've been evaluating myself what i've been doing for the last couple months specially on "too much thing"...very interesting how i found myself very unorganized-person...

too much spending on coffee-n-frens .. imperial bakery, bakerzia, excelso, starbuck, dome, coffee club which not good for health and not good for wallet ... :-(

too much chatting...

too much watching Desperate Housewives in a day... which almost acting like one..

too much thinking about the idea of having ideal relationship...which so fairy-tale!

too much illusion of having a better shape..kurus maksudnya..

but in the end of day.. i wake up knowing that those too much thing i've done..."ngga penting.....!!!" im just happy as i am... wuiiiich...i feel good...

Cerita Sehari-hari...

2008-05-10T21:04:00.006+07:00

Up-dating our life story which maybe most people think would be narcis..but hey..this is the reason why we do blogging right.., feeling right of being narcis... :-) with the reason up of dedicating the story for the loved ones.. but to be more fair and honest..its just more fulfilling my need or emotions..he..he..sorry guys..i think thats the truth...

This entry's just going to be like any other daily life moment..., just one week-end over another. Last Friday, i met Aurell's mum...Mira, Aurell's one of Gifta's fren at school. Both Aurell and Gifta wanted to go to spend time
together...like going to the mall...which really ok to me. Simple.. the Kids could have fun, so were the mums.., Kidz went to the playground with nannys...and after making sure everything's ok..we went for "whatever"...whatever here means really whatever..ha..ha..

This Saturday, our choice was Senayan City...coz we arrived lunch time then we directly went to Hoka-hoka Bento..every body (read : Aurell, Gifta n Nugra) had Shrimp, rice and Choc-Puding..hhmmm...then continued to Playmall...as the ritual..ok, the children would play about an hour there with Nannies so Mira and I had an hour also to go around..(ayah was not in picture..he's doing some training from work)

What Mums did..while children were playing..up-dating clothing situation (well...none!!), and then go..shoes..(well...none!!)..and go to ATM to finished the utilities bills (check...done!!)..and we end at Excelso me having latte and club sandwich complete with chips (guilty as charged..ouch!!) while Mira had Evian..hhmm..this gorgeous Lady really now how to behave....(wink!)....chit-chat-chit-chat...from planing swimming at Bellagio, week-end at Bandung, Bangkok..or even long-week end in Perth...have no idea at all which one is gonna be the real plan....one hour finished..we have to pick up our children...

Mira said she had to leave for something.., and i tot the same ..but my girl really insisted to play for more..art deco or make something...there you go..next destination Kidz Station Gifta made some painting..Nugra played hotwheel..end up buying ones... while me..juz look around, hey i found good discount on dish-ware.., and browsing gift for Nugras fren...."beautiful swimming towel with Cinderella on it" ... check and buy...

Nothing much we did actually just like ordinary week-end, we stopped for some groceries on the back home just around the neighbourhood, everybody's tired in the end and have rest after except me coz i have to do check and balance... but look what i got...Bills..and Bills..Oh No, we spent so much and its only 11th of the month...another strategy has to be done...Planning of taking rest was postponed after doing "the-check-and-balance things" HELP..somebody...HELP....!!

Perjuangan hidup...?

2008-05-02T13:48:00.006+07:00

Sekarang lagi musim penawaran 50% diskon untuk makan di resto-resto baik yang di mall atopun yang bukan...jadi memicu orang untuk makan...dengan harga yang murah..meskipun mahal karna memang restonya juga mahal.. Siang ini temenku mau traktir makan di Tony Romas karena ada promosi 50% untuk kartu kredit tertentu..yang ternyata orang2 pada antri..dan kalo pake kartu itu baru dapet seat buat makan 1 jam kemudian yang artinya kita harus berdiri 1jam hanya untuk makan ??????... %#***&&&**** (apa tuch artinya!!!)... buat aku pribadi ogah amat......, ternyata temenku si penraktir yg akan terbebani biaya makan siang itu..juga tidak sudi..., jadi lebih baik dia bayar full daripada harus antri...ha..ha...akhirnya berhasilah itu promosi resto mencapai tujuan..., karna masih ada quota meja buat pelanggan yg mau membayar lebih banyak :-( .... tanpa berusaha menyalahkan..thats' business, right? Perjuangan orang mau makan? thats not perjuangan pastinya ya..karna hanya memenuhi keinginan lidah dan perut bukan kebutuhan...

Akhirnya kita makan, dan selesai cepat2 karna harus ber-empati sama orang2 yang ngantri di luar...masak kita enak2 ngobrol sementara banyak orang nunggu seat kita di luar panas2 (cukup panas lah..di wahid hasyim secara dihalaman gitu...) dan alhasil..assisten yg suka antar jemput kita (me and children) belum masih selesai jemput anak2, akhirnya..cegat taxi, and back to office...trus apa crita judul perjuangan...? tunggu dulu dech..

Pas masuk taxi "tarif lama", bilang selamat siang pak..."taxi driver" jawab dengan suara lembut "selamat siang bu..." LHO! wanita rupanya, for the very first time for me..to know for real taxi driver lady... dan aku jadi penumpangnya.., tidak gender hanya merasa agak surprise dan merasa apa ya...bingung lah menggambarkannya..

aku panggil "mbak" ke ibu supir taxi ini...mulai lah..aku membuka percakapan..karna ingin tau ato usil..beti lah..beda-beda tipis...

+ mbak, udah lama jadi supir taxi?

- udah bu, lumayan 1 tahun...

+ emang banyak ya supir taxi perempuan (yg bener perempuan apa wanita sich?...tau ah)

- banyak kok bu..

+ trus ngga takut? kalo2 ada orang jahat naik taxi mbak?

- engga lah udah biasa..

+ tapi kan narik kalo siang doang ya..., ngga sampe malem kan?

- engga bu 24 jam, karna ngejar setoran..kayak sekarang saya baru keluar siang..nanti saya

sampe jam 12 ato jam malam trus istirahat jam 6 pagi jalan lagi sampe siang..

masih dengan pikiran "how brave this woman on the street...at night...." masih nanya lagi..

+ ngga takut ya mbak...malem-malem gitu...

- engga bu, tadinya sich suka capek dan sampe sakit tipus, tapi sekarang 1 hari ngga kerja

ngga betah...habis gimana bu..cari kerjaan kan susah sekarang.., ngga dapat kerjaan..

+ iya lah..mbak tapi tetep harus hati-hati ya..

ini bener2 lho dari hatiku yang terdalem... :-(

Percakapan masih berlanjut sebenernya dia diterima jadi supir bus-way cuma SIM mesti bikin yang untuk bis, crita setoran, penghasilan dan kisah2 lain masih terus .... sampe aku turun di gedung kantor ku ..., sepanjang ngobrol itu aku masih belum bisa menerima wanita.. dengan pekerjaan yg penuh resiko itu..entah ya.., bukan aku secara sebagai wanita minta dikasihani..hanya saja... secara alami malam2 ditengah jalan..istirahat/tidur didalam taxi malam2 di jalan..rasanya gimana gitu, tapi mungkin itulah Perjuangan hidup?

Setelah itu aku jadi malu ama diri sendiri dan TUHAN yg telah memberikan begitu banyak buat aku dan keluargaku tapi aku masih suka ngeluh.., masih merasa perlu pernyataan tentang diri sendiri dari orang lain..yang bener2 itu ngga penting.., masih kepingin beli ini itu...aduch TUHAN ampuni aku...Have mercy on me... i was so blind ... i know that im a lucky woman...turned out i know that im a verrrrrrrrrry..lucky one..., THANK YOU... THANK YOU... forgive me for mis-behaved which must be very annoying .... to YOU.

Dear Lord,

please Bless the taxi driver ladies wherever they are.., send your Angels to protect them from evil along the way ... and bless their Family, and give them other jobs if possible so then they could stay at home during the night, specially the ones who have children to support ... Lord, Thank you for listening to my prayer and theirs. Ameen.

what's so called being Positive...

2008-04-21T14:25:00.005+07:00

now we could easily find the self-improvement-books or courses..which lead to become positive person..whenever we read the books or joined the course or training/workshop..its like we found something new..something that we could apply to our daily life..specially things to do with our professional work life..., How to think B to reach B thing, How we should not limit our thought or ability..sort of thing like that ...

Everything looks easily to follow, complete with guidance of steps...to get the final result. My frend told me that She got the result already by following this, thus she made the decision that She would quit the job by mid of this year and build her own thing..i was so impressed about her decision ...

another fren of mine, she made the decision to leave the job as a secretary and became an insurance agent together with her husband and she made it, i saw her name on the newspaper where her insurance company put a big Ad putting her names as MDRT (i didnt know what it means..just called it as achievement...)

Then the problem why i didnt have a courage to do the same ... many people said if you dont love the job then leave...is that simple? what about set of responsibility that you have...? should we have put them on consideration right? or am i too coward to face the changes?...exactly i feel like a coward now...completely... , i love my job really ... but in the certain circumstances i've been pushed not to like them at the same time ...

i have busy brain at this moment..but no time for regret...yes NO regret. Its time to move on, be positive and grateful ... as i heard the preacher told me last Sunday which really inspired me pure and simple ... but sometime hardly to manifest in my daily life...

GOD give the prosperity in all areas to be our right as fruits

but the root should be built in holy life ... both in tought, mind, heart and behaviour so then

our life would be fruitfull and blessed ...

i was stunned listening to these words.., if so..i definetely need HELP.....

Liburan tanpa rencana..

2008-04-20T19:08:00.028+07:00

Liburan yang tidak direncanakan itu tepatnya mungkin judulnya,... crita keputusan ini di ambil karna para Asisten-2 handal di rumah pada pulang kampung..karna "mantu" dan yang satu sebagai tantenya juga harus hadir..akhirnya..."yours trully" ini harus cuti untuk melakukan tugas2 yang memang seharusnya menjadi tugas pokok sebagai ibu rumah tangga yang selama ini terabaikan...toooooooooooooolloooooooonggg....

Alih2 ini kerjaan setiap lebaran, eh ini terjadi in the middle of the year..not even middle dech baru kuartal pertama kali ya...ya udah si mami mesti cuti..., eh si ayah ikutan cuti..membayangkan harus melakukan semuanya sendiri aja udah pegel2...akhirnya kita memutuskan untuk ikutan pulang kampung nengok orang-tua ... acara berbhakti sekalian ngungsi dech...(manja memang ya...kita ini..) anak2 juga ikutan cuti dech...dengan membawa materi2 pelajaran selama bolos 3 hari.. "3-days-home-schooling" la critanya...who's gonna be the teacher?.... ga perlu di jelasin kali ya..

Kakak Gifta yang masih harus bertanggung-jawab atas keputusan bolos orang-tuanya dengan mengerjakan tugas2 3-days-home-schooling di kamar hotel...., dan suka protes kenapa nugra engga Mi...? karna nugra masih kecil ya...? nach itu tau jawabnya..

Jumat malam this business took effect ..semua asisten udah ngga ada...jadi "no-friday-after-work-coffee" dech...bye mba nah, bye mba titi..jangan telat pulangnya ya..., dengan yakin si mami bisa meng-handle semua sendiri...whats difficult about it anyway kan?... wanti2 ke ayah...."yah..kalo pulang malem langsung makan di luar aja ya..., biar ngga usah masak lagi.." dengan cepat ayah setuju..."beres..." katanya mantap..., jam 9 malam ayah pulang ...tanya "mi ada makanan apa?" LHO! katanya mau makan di luar...ah ngga sempet...jadi....udach alhasil...terpaksa nyalain kompor...dan seadanya lah.. dadar telor, sayur seadanya yang penting. nasi hangat.. cukup..cuma urusannya yaitu cuci piriiiiiiiiiing, penggorengan dan temen2nya dech...(he..he..he..)

Gifta ajak nugra main "swing it" istilah si kakak, dengan patuh penumpang setuju dengan arrangement kakak, lama the swing makin kenceng sampe-sampe penumpang teriak2 dech..., akhirnya penumpang turun, tapi ... buat kakak..tetep swing with or without dech..!! jalan terus...

Sabtu pagi, rencana kita mau langsung ke Purwokerto setelah semua beres, rumah beres..anak2 beres..soonest the best...eh ternyata ngga beres..., check list panjang...coz we're gonna 8 hours driving with children..jadi mesti make sure semua tersedia..dari siapin makanan, susu, snacking....pokoknya name it..."better safe than sorry" alhasil ...banyak banget yg mesti di bawa..., tapi anak2 begitu sweet-sweet-potato (apa coba maksudnya..) ...so independent dan mengagumkan, big sister take care of her brother..and the other way around cukup menolong..., Nugra sempet bantuin ngepel..., Gifta jagain adeknya..dengan gaya big-sister!pushed-him-around!... telling nugra what to do...jadi Boss Gifta?

Lima hari perjalanan yang cukup melelahkan..kita singgah ke 5 kota..tapi menjadi hal2 yang menyenangkan, banyak hal yang kita lupa untuk kita omongin secara suami-istri gitu lho.., jadi keinget selama perjalanan...Jakarta-Purwokerto to see Opa for 2 nights-Jogja one night to see Eyang-Cirebon one night to see nobody... kebayang dech capeknya..tapi semua dilalui dengan baik..

Selama perjalanan kita makan yang kita mau makan, kita minum apa yang pengen kita minum ngga peraturan...rambu2nya cuma sepanjang anak2 bisa makan akhirnya segala peraturan food combining dan air hangat plus jeruk nipis tinggal kenangan sepanjang cuti...sarapan pagi di hotel, siang dan malam..apa yg anak2 mau..biasanya ayam goreng kalasan ..dan kremesnya jadi menu hampir setiap siang,...... tapi bakso dan cendol..itu adalah..."apa yg mami mau...." hhmm...lezat dech...

Biarin aku yang jagain ade Mum.., waduch ok nich Gifta.., sambil cuci piring masih sempet denger these lovely sister-brother ngobrol..."Nugra..sekarang kita main ..adek-kakak ya..., aku yang jadi kakaknya ..nugra yang jadi adeknya ya..., nanti kalo aku suruh tidur harus mau ya..." mulai dech si sutradara kasih arahan pemain ....jadi senyum2 sendiri dech dengernya ada2 aja si kakak nich....aduch beruntung dech si nugra dapet peran sesuai kenyataan...jadi casting-nya gampang ya nugra...he..he..

Sesuai jadwal kita sampai di jakarta Rabu malam. dengan membayangkan rumah yang udah rapi dan bersih...jadi tinggal bongkar barang..tanpa harus "bebenah lagi" karna sesuai perjanjian dengan dearly asistant mba titi, kembali ke jakarta rabu pagi..eh..ada sms...selasa malam..."ibu maaf disini hujan deres, ngga ada yg anter ke terminal jadi pulang di tunda..." ach...kecewa..tp kata Gifta harus dibales mam.."ya udah ngga papa gitu..." ok..dech masa di ajarin anak sich.... malu hati tp sebel aku ketik sms "ok" mau gimana lagi....

Rabu malam itu sampe dijakarta tanpa terlihat lelah Gifta dan Nugra masih tetep suasana bermain..sampai jam 12 malam... ngga bisa tidur kata mereka.., ya iya karna tidur sepanjang jalan di mobil... sementara si ayah dan si mami kelelahan pengen tidur..., akhirnya mereka terlelap juga....kita pun langsung terkapar.., jam 5 pagi terbangun ada orang mengetuk di bawah..tek-tek-tek...langsung terbangun lari membuka pintu...dari lantai atas kutengok....mbak titi ya..." ada jawaban di bawah...."iya bu........Hooooraaaaaaaaaaaaaaay........ my hero is coming.....

Its good to be alone..only four of us.., but if i do have a choice its better if there're somebody around helping us.., Guys you are really our great partner ... thank you for being with us..so far. Thank you..thank you.... !!!

the Story about saying i love you...

2008-04-20T00:36:00.007+07:00

the three magic words " i love you"... for some people its just words.. easy to say it even they didnt mean that..(for real), and for some others these words are really...really difficult to spell. Im kinda person who easily say the words i love you or i miss you..but i did mean that..and i would never fake my feeling for the sake of courtesy or just having lips service conversation or whatsoever..."never have and never will" its just genuinely expressing my feeling and nothing wrong with that..., i may say that i love my husband and children different when i love my frens..but its still love, isnt it? and i'll keep saying it..to persons that i feel to say it..."i love you..."

this is the little story about saying i love you in a little family of mine..., this is what i do before we go to bed

+ me : i love you Gifta..
- Gifta : i love you mum..
+ me : i love you nugra
- Nugra : i love you mum
+ me : i love you ayah
- ayah : hhhmmmm...
+ Gifta : mum..i told you not to say i love you to ayah...
- Nugra : wrong ayah, i love you mami...gituh!!

Yup, my children were protesting my better-half why he didnt say love me back.., i said its ok..mum's gonna say anyway... for i know he's deeply in love with me (wink..wink..wink..), and the story goes..and i keep doing it..and got "the-hhhmmm-answer" ...

and one-friday-night...this ritual keep rolling...

+ me : i love you Gifta..
- Gifta : i love you mum..
+ me : i love you nugra
- Nugra : i love you mum
+ me : i love you ayah
- ayah : i love you mami..
+ Gifta : Yewwww....ayah say i love you....
- Nugra : Good my dad ...good...(with-cute-little-acting-adult- voice..)

the children were surprisingly happy to hear their ayah spelling the words, what about me ..surprised...no..not at all, i told you..he's gonna say it.., he felt that..he just need to get used to it...i told you he's in love with me.... :-) with or without the words....

I love you guys....!!!

Drumband Competition...

2008-04-06T20:36:00.006+07:00

Gifta and her friends before going to Istora Senayan
(gifta-salma-ayu-nisa)

about more than a month..my girl had been busy preparing for this drum-band competition. specially for the last-two weeks, they're working out like every day... after school, during Saturday... when they were supposed to have holiday.., i was not able to watch her practice but i followed the progress..., my girl joined as flag guard.."do the dancing..." most of her gang joined the same category..., she almost gave up in the first time..shock of discipline culture.. . she got from her trainer/teacher..ha..ha.. " mami..i don't want to go for drum-band practice anymore..." hhhmmm...i dont want her to grow to be a quitter..so then i told her i would talk to her teacher not to hard on her.... she said no..no..no.. so then i rest my case (wink)

the competition was held on istora senayan last saturday..., i woke her up 5.30 in the morning for she should be at her school by 7 o'clock..and before that we have done her hair do as balerina and make-up ... to be honest..i could not do it so then i left it to the expert.... she was still completely sleepy....and not in the mood..., "c'mon kakak..its a big day....wake up..let me see your smile.." my-standard-mummy-style ...and it works all the time...yes, its B day...new experience..for her and us also as parents..

there was 12 contestant.., our children was no. 6.... so then we watched 4 others 1 was W-O...our hearts was beating....hows its gonna be..they're only 6 years old kids..., but WOW...big WOW...it was really baguuuuuuuuussss... banget, all the mommies..gave all the support by screaming...shouting their school name.. as loud as could be..so then our children could hear..i thought it was the wildest supporter so far..in that competition... ha..ha.. while the mommies screaming and giving yell-yell.. daddies stay still...with handy-cam ha..ha.. very contradiction..it doesnt mean they didnt give the support..its just different kinda way they express things..., we are so proud of them and hillariously happy... i felt tears in my cheek... (terharus bow!! secara anak gue gitu lho....) after everything finished..we realized that we didnt much picture of it..., but still lucky..the cool daddy a.k.a ayah got it on his handy-cam... that's why mom-dad should have different characters... :-)

we left home after they finished..coz our children looks tired.., they need some rest.., and got it from text-message..."they are 3rd winner and chosen to be favorite team..." we expect to be 1st winner of course like last year...but the most important thing was that we saw that our children have already gave their best...that's all matter to us, and as parents-teachers we were really a great team in the same spirit for our children.....

way to go..children...
we are so proud of you.....!!!

Ps. i would up-load the video after got it from ayah..

Grow...be a Man that God proud of you...

2008-03-25T10:44:00.002+07:00

It was amazing...
It was wonderful...
It was a miracle...
and...a huge thing..to have you in our life...

Darling,
You gave us spirit of life...
You teach us how to be parent..
You deliver us the most genuine love..we've ever known
and you are the reason..that we have to be strong...

in the 4th year of your age...
We cant believe that you are so understanding..
So..considerate, persistent..and dicipline..
Even you didnt have enough example from us...

Darling,
We are so proud of you..
Nothing we expect from you..but GROW..
be a Man that GOD proud of you..

Happy Birthday Anugrah-ku sayang..

Mommie loves you so much

you complete me..

Izzi's birthday

2008-03-23T20:24:00.014+07:00

Nugra enjoyed izzi's-birthday-yummy-strawberry-cheesecake...as usual Mom finished all the left-over both from Gifta and Nugra...got big portion in the end...

The girls did have a great time ..ooops not only the girls...Nugra what are you doing...? aren't you supposed to play with the boys...? where are the boys anyway....

Izzi-the-bithday-girl with Gifta..
they're both sweet and adorable,
aren't they?

Behind the scene...

incoming text message from Izzi's Mom :

"Hi Gifta and Nugra, hari Kamis ini main ke Prefere Kemang jam 3 sore yaa..Izzi ultah nii.. Ditunggu yaa. RSVP ya. thx"

hhmm.. party invitation for gifta n nugra..., Moms are familiar with names of kids at school from stories they told us ... its so funny among Mothers at school but we've never officially known each other... even names ... but we knows the kids.., whenever we (read-mothers) met we just mingled... talked about children without introducing our each other names..until we think that we should ... (am i right Moms?... wink..wink..)

Btw about the party, Gifta and Nugra haven't been to Prefere Kemang before....it was public holiday.... jadi kebetulan neech..sekalian ngisi liburan.... Turned out it was really nice party...we stayed till the end...Happy Birthday Izzi! we did have a great time..!!! Diana..

Ssst... my girl has already made a list who's going to be invited.., she wants the same birthday as Izzi's.... repot kalo gini urusannya...;-)

Like any other day...

2008-03-17T08:02:00.009+07:00

Story about our last week-end
Saturday, 15 March 2008

No Candle Light Dinner
No Romantic Plan on the table
No whatsoever so called special thing..

the day was spent by extending the over-due driving license...
the day was spent by eating favorite kangkung noodle in Kemang...
the day was spent by having husband-wife talks..

about children..
about old days...
about pension plan....

It sounds like any other ordinary week-end
Yes it was...completely..
But still another day that we should be thankful for....

Happy Birthday ... Ayah..!!
Thank you for being a such good friend, father and husband..
.....thats all we need !!!

Gank of Narcis Lady...

2008-03-12T17:45:00.005+07:00

in my age... I've been mingled with kinds of people...with different kind of characters, either from my work life or personal one, i found it very interesting... we could learn so much from that, sometime we got crashed with some people because of their character or habit, and sometime we could just easily get along with someone for same reason..., im not saying that this one is good, better or bad or worse... the matter is only different.., some people could get along or make friend for the same interest, hobby,....or nothing just truly friendship...

recently i became an observer...of the two ladies who really get along pretty well, joined them in their conversation over coffee and cheese-cake, heavy buffet lunch ... or just casual daily conversation over handy Y!...it looked that they always had fun..in their conversation... the subject is not always serious..but not always light..what do you call that...? what made me interest in writing about them for it seems that they always have topics to talk about...being supportive, not judging..they're very opened about the dark secrets of theirs...,with all the things..make more interesting the fact is that they are very narcis..in the different kind of way...

How narcis? oh...verrrrrrrrrrrrrrry.......

.... story in a-very-casual-conversation .......

me : hey..you guys realize that you've been very narcis...

Lady 1 : not really ... what we are talking... i meant about us ... its fact and proven (with - full-of -joke - tone)

Lady 2 : yes...proven abizzzzzzzzz......(same tone...)

they're talking about people specially mostly Man regret after ... leaving or giving up their relationship with them ... ck..ck..ck..ck...dasyaaat!!! really something, isnt it? funny thing is that i didnt see it negatively... that is only the way they saw everything from the bright side when everything didnt work out as expected ... so then i called them "Gang of narcis Lady" ...they're completely fine with that..of course..'fact and proven' .... right Ladies?

anyone's interested in joining the Gang?....i've been told some conditions applied :

should be woman at least 35 years old...(least to make them not to look old...)

if married you have to be a submissive wife (non negotiable...)

happy and proud of what you are now...(not for past or future....-read- illusion)

have spirit of truly friendship....(not for interest or money - read- ngga ada pinjem-pinjeman duit- just asked....gile bener!)

no hypocrite welcome (ke laut aja....)

anything you say for the reason of being narcis should be fact and proven...

being narcis allowed only within the gang...(limited edition and environment....)

the last but definetely not least..."sesama narsis dilarang saling mendahului.."

Phew....anyone....anyone? Ladies...come out..come out wherever you are....

Ps. ha..ha..ha.. it's joke in the middle of the day...yours truly...

Field Trip to Safari Garden

2008-03-06T22:30:00.007+07:00

Its been a week delaying this post, guilty feeling to my boy ... that could not make this entry in time like he's been treated unfair by yours truly but anyway..better late than never, sorry nugra ....

After his sister went to planetarium, Nugra also had field trip program to Safari Garden... to see all the animals..., and its compulsory for one adult to go with him in the bus.., and i did promise my boy that i would go with him...it was really unfortunate that i was not really in good condition... low blood pressure, i couldnt even get up the day before...but my words to him attached to my bones.. i force myself to go....(very glad that could make it till the end..)

Having finished animals trip and the show.. the group had free time, and most of students went for game.. we did have a great time.. only my stupidity...when tempted to go for spinning boat...oh my gosh..forgot my condition.. and i almost passed out...(funny ha..ha..!!)

you should see how nugra enjoyed the trip with frens....btw guys..he's been telling me that he got a favorite friend -- if you know what i mean -- ok..you may take a guess...(wink..!!)

Taking this opportunity, i would like to ask parents of Medi, Sisuka, Najwa, Nikita, Lala, Amira... and names that i might miss to mention..... to put picture your children..here, hope you dont mind...thank you...

Field-Trip to Planetarium

2008-02-21T22:02:00.009+07:00

My girl was excited preparing everything for her today's field trip to go to planetarium at Taman Ismail Marzuki ... , she's been telling everybody that no parents need to accompany her in this field-trip just students and teachers only ....seems so independent...huh... :(

Wake-up very early in the morning... jump up from the bed... she kept saying field trip...today's field trip..gave reminder to everybody..., directly go having shower, so busy... giving instruction to mba Titi, our dearly assistant.. " jangan lupa senter, aku mesti bawa senter karna gelap disana....Aurell juga bawa"

i was just smiling to see how busy she was...

when we were ready to go... i was surprised she was carrying backpack and other small bag..

+ Gifta... tas kecil buat apa?

- Isi camera..

+ Camera maenan...?

- Ngga, ini beneran, ayah aku yang pinjemin. ayahku kan ngga pelit...

( ayah...oh...ayah...speechless...!!!!)

She looks very happy with her new adventure...going out with only friends and teachers...ready to explore.., i wait till the bus left ... cant believe that my girl's going out without me... Have Fun darling....take care, dont forget to pray...i love you...

Pictures got from the camera she borrowed from ayah...:-) what a girl......
taken by her teacher tks Miss...

Menangis...

2008-02-20T17:06:00.006+07:00

aku pikir menangis itu kita cengeng...

aku pikir menangis itu tandanya kita lemah..

aku pikir menangis itu tandanya kita kalah...

aku pikir menangis itu tandanya hal yang harus dihindari...

ternyata... aku salah...

berbahagialah kalo masih bisa menangis..

ternyata ... menangis itu susah...

karna pada saat aku perlu menangis..

aku ngga bisa.... !!!!

Reminder to myself.....

2008-02-19T09:05:00.005+07:00

this morning, i went to the office with no motivation which i know if keep on going this mambo-jumbo-drama-queen feeling it will become self-pitty ... then i decided to give myself REMINDER ...

Lean everything on GOD's plan not with your own understanding ... you and your intellegency (if you think you have but actually you dont) are nothing before HIM ... totally completely surender..that's smartest thing to do
dont even try to do something which belongs to GOD's portion, ... even you think you've been hurt until your very soul, no need to ridicule.. no need to complain stay still and do your part... forgive, forget and move on...just be grateful..
dont make your-self like a fool ... appreciate and love yourself by doing something smart...

Lord, thank YOU for everything....

thank YOU for taking care of us everyday without fail ...

thank YOU for loving us...

Lord, YOU are more than anything,

more than gold more than anything

Lord, YOU are everything to me,

i will never let YOU go, never ever let YOU go..

PR from Arie...

2008-02-16T21:01:00.003+07:00

im pretty new in this blog-society ... so then i didnt know much people in the blog-sphere... and i dont have enough confidence to get to know with new people ...or giving comments ... which completely different me in the real world but im not saying that this is not real...(hhmmm...so confusing..in fact i have no idea what im talking about...)

It will be a problem when somebody gave assignment like this ... i've no much people to pass it on ...but anyway most important thing ... i would always do my best ... i got homework this from arie... i knew her from fren met fren finally we became kinda members of un-official mom's club... maturnuwun rie...

Homework :

Anger is only one letter short of danger If someone betrays you once, it is his fault; If he betrays you twice, it is your fault. Great minds discuss ideas; Average minds discuss events; Small minds discuss people. He, who loses money, loses much; He, who loses a friend, loses much more; He, who loses faith, loses all. Beautiful young people are accidents of nature, But beautiful old people are works of art. Learn from the mistakes of others, You can’t live long enough to make them all yourself.

Friends, you and me…You brought another friend…And then there were 3…We started our group…Our circle of friends…And like that circle…There is no beginning or end…Yesterday is history.Tomorrow is mystery.Today is a gift.So now, let’s see how many circle’s of friends we can make by simply adding your link on this Friendship Meme!

1. Catsy Carpe Diem
2. Catsy Download
3. Out of the Blue
4. A Day to Savor and Relish
5. A Piece of Idea
6. Write Shy
7. Stupid Wise
8. onlinememorylane
9. See Me For What You Will
10. Michelle’s Small World
11. Chez Francine
12. Cronaca
13. Le bric à brac de Cherie
14. Life
15. Hanna
16. AngrianiWorld
17. Farah
18. Anoushka
19. Noushy Syah
20. Eagle
21. Dasir
22. Shirei
23. Eucalyptus
24. IrmaBuana
25. Vee
26. Ary
27.nuke

as i said, i didnt know much people... i would deliver this to the very fine hubby and daddy pak idham, and the multi-talented-my-lady-fren... pennylane a.k.a . ria....

To Pak Idham dan Ria cantik... , im so lucky to have you in this situation... :-) ooooppsss... ...please help me with this...hope you dont get sick of me...

Gifta's Art....

2008-02-15T08:45:00.006+07:00

as a mom ..i enjoy doing my daily activities..every morning, i drop my girl off school, and walk her to the school gate..she gives me hug and kiss .... "i love you mommie...bye mommie.." it really gives me spirit everymorning before dealing with office things... (hhhhmmmm... ), im not able to take my boy to school for his class just begin at 10 so then ....(sorry nugra...but July this year you will have morning class.. mom would be able to take you to school.. with God Will of course...)

one morning, i didnt walk my girl to the school gate only but up to her class... and i saw her art was chosen to be put on the "majalah dinding sekolah".... i was so proud n happy... and get my mobile... take picture for the memory ....

my sweet and beautiful swimmer

2008-02-06T19:01:00.001+07:00

the swimmer has been born ... my little girl .... Gifta loves swimming, and one of the best swimmer in her school.., mom's so proud of you...sweetie..

Siomay Lover....hhmm...

2008-02-04T22:57:00.000+07:00

Waking up from nap..last Sunday, Nugra looked so hungry..and he was asking for Siomay..his favorite snack...(snack??? not pretty sure if siomay's for snacking...) then we drove to tebet barat to find our "tukang siomay langganan"..we didnt find him..probably coz of the flood. Trying to bargain with my boy offering something else... but he's persistence as usual..

decided to go to foodcourt carefour mt haryono ... finally ... one thing about my boy, he knows exactly what he wants as always. Did he enjoy his siomay?? definitely..every piece of them....yum..yum..till the end..

Jakarta Banjir lagi...

2008-02-01T17:20:00.000+07:00

Entry - friday/01 Feb 2007

Aduch (pake "c" ) Jakarta banjir lagi...selalu setiap tahun sama persoalannya.., sampe kapan ya..? Ayo dong Mr. Governor ... you had my vote lho...!! kita sekeluarga juga ngga buang sampah sembarangan..ato bikin hal2 yang sembrono lainnya...

-Ayah ninggal mobil di kantor karna takut kerendem banjir padahal kantor di thamrin..-
- temenku inge terpaksa check in sama anak2 di ibis slipi tanpa bawa baju..karna ngga bisa pulang cempaka putih banjir...
- Efa kebingungan mesti lewat mana..rumah "flood free" kantor completely flood area...-
- aku sich ngga papa asik2 aja..tetep bisa nge-blog..ato malah having coffee at starbuck, cuma apa pantes? karna orang lain lagi bingung banjir... (sorry ayah, inge, efa....this is jakarta with everything on it...including banjir!)

tapi aku tetap cinta Jakarta... my love, my city but even more love you if flood free ... what do you think Mr Governor?

Entry - saturday/02 Feb 2007

up-dated this entry sharing with you my experience with "flood situation"... everybody got home safe on friday night, but we still had to think about how we should get to go to the airport since our nephew, steve, had to go very early flight to go back to Perth..., but i just tot that all the flood things have been downed .. only because i felt that way.. not checked the real situation...

so then we wake up early to drive steve to the airport, ayah, gifta and me.., we left home around 5.15 am, the flight would be 8.10 am.. that should be fine..that's what we tot...turned out that we're completely wrong.., the road to go to the airport was blocked for the flood... so then we had to turn back to find the alternative way.. i was a bit worried..coz steve's visa was finished today, if he didnt make it so then he's gonna be over-stayed ... ooh.. its saturday we have to apply for extended visa..and other things..but nothing that we could do just go straight find the alternative way to get him to the airport..

The only alternative way was get thru Serpong - Tangerang which also completely stucked...it got really slow moving..ayah tried to find sort things on line from his O2 life but it seems all didnt help a lot, only the one saying most all the airplane was delayed for 2 - 3 hours...gave up hope..mudah2an... for steve's flight..also delayed. After struggle and long journey, we finally made to the airport arround 9 am, "harap-harap cemas", i told steve that we're gonna wait till sure that he could make it...at least knew the result.. still a bit worried since he didnt know how to speak bahasa ... so then i decided to come along but the problem was i could get trhu without pass..to get it ... i was running to OIC (officer in charge) ...who was this morning very hectic busy taking calls from all over asking about traffice get thru to the airport... wait about 5 minutes and smile and nice officer gave me the pass after i've explained my situation exchanging with my "KTP id" i would get my id after returning the pass, even he gave the mobile phone no. of people in immigration in case my nephew had problem... oh thank you officer.. (next i knew his name's Frans Joseph.. thank you pak frans..u keep smiling eventhough u looked completely tired...)

i should go back to find my nephew make sure that he would be ok, with the pass i could get thru to the check in counter... "his flight was already boarding" but found out that his name was not checked in yet..oh gosh..looking around..i found him in confused face, the check-in counter was closed...coz its the regulation...but "never give up"...begging to the check-counter officer..pleasssssssssssee... put my nephew in coz bla..bla..bla..., he looked at me and said you should talk to the manager..."no problem" ..you could ask me to talk t0 anybody..as long as steve gets in...finally i didnt have to talk to anybody... he gave steve boarding pass...YESSS...mission accomplished, Steve looked very relief.."thank you for everything, auntie nuke.." and i asked him to run... (no worries steve, that's what auntie nuke's for...!!)

we're so relief and happy ... but couldnt get too excited, we had to think how we're supposed to go back home.. there's no other way but the same as we got to the airport...ooh no... there you go guys...another 4 .5 hours going back home ... very hot and bad traffice.....we're all tired so then i told my girl ... "ok Gifta, next time you still wanna come if the traffic like this, u're better staying at home with your brother..." my girl simply said :" i still wanna come with you mom ..." isnt it like ice water in the dessert?

Picture taken from the car by amateur with E-90 :-)

Real Friendship or just same interest...?

2008-01-28T12:12:00.000+07:00

Completely normal if in this life..feeling like or dislike, even if we try hard to avoid the negative feeling, Some people like you and some people dont ... for their own reason, which sometime we could not even understand ... we cant make everybody happy no matter how hard or even perfect you're trying..coz every person has different expectations about thing..even for the same thing..

Its true story about friendship that I have with 'one very important Lady'... we had hilarious relationship in the past, we were one hell good team.."back up each other" but more for business other than personal ...i've known her for like 15 years..yes 15 years..its not short time at all for two people working together... i knew her family in complete package .. her husband & children, parents/in low, sister-brother just imagine how closed i was with this Lady ... as famous said that there's no party which is not over ...

It was the time when everything seems not easy .... one situation changed her professional career from very strategic level into different kinda post, without me being involved... from then on everything seems different, friendship or relationship that we built had no meaning... only its happened that i should handle some of her tasks (coz i was her 2nd layer...), career or business was all about... eventually i know that there were no friendship between us .... only "interest" that i could accommodate her and not endanger or threat her in any way in terms of business... so then im her friend..

Like the up-side down show, that's also happened in our relationship...over-nothing, yes, I might say over-nothing ...but hey..who knows that i might have hurt her feeling so badly so then she decided to make me disappear from her life..., so then I take my chances to tell her ....personally...

dearest ibu, im really sorry if i've hurt your feeling in any ways.., never have and never will intentionally harm you...
dearest ibu, the friendship that we had doesnt mean anything to you? i dont believe that coz i knew you too well..
dearest ibu, but if "those things" are really meant to you...to be in your highest priority so be it..
dearest ibu, one thing i want u to know that deep down in my heart, i still miss you..we still can be a great team ... as usual ...if you want..you may still keep the credit... dont worry about me...im still the same person that u know 15 years ago...just more mature and more personality (narcis ngga tuch gue!!!!)

Learnt Lesson share with my children:

My love, Don't let anyone or anything determine what you think or what you are feeling..., be a winner, think and act like one...then you became a real winner..no matter what real situation you're dealing with. Be sincere, do your utmost, and yr best wishes .. Allah Almighty will send the best things for you personally....

BFF --- Best Friend Forever...

2008-01-24T15:41:00.000+07:00

Im writing this entry to dedicate to my very best friend (whos so happenedly changed her last name and also inspired me to do the same..hhmm...) to tell her how happy I am to see her right now...How She is now really in the complete package!! Happy in her marriage..Happy in her job...Happy in her spiritual life..cant ask for more..

If I re-called first time we met, we were "seriously-dangerously single"...like we were destined to meet-up to share all stupid-stories we had..so then we knew that we were not alone. We could talk for hours only people were in love could compete with us... we talked about everything..from family issue, living single...and the adventure of being one.., friends movie..junk food, junk mail, junk Man and their junk acts (ha..ha..)...like we share everything. i remember we went to Bali for week-end, and we could not even stop talking since we left my office till we landed in Bali..not even when the airplane landed we were talking half screaming...so then our conversation continued...its really nut...(efa..i always laugh every time i remembered this..i miss our time..)

we always say that we've never thought... we could be so lucky to have family like today..., I would've agreed even more..yes we are so lucky.., and im feel so lucky to have a fren like you..wish a very best in everything..to "You and Abang.".

as teenagers says nowadays...

"Best Friend Forever.."

hope that we will be...

PR dari Lisa...

2008-01-23T13:13:00.000+07:00

Wow Lisa..homework from u... to spread the love, so Im being the spreader of Love? you must be joking, anyway thank you...thank you so then to whom should spread the love to...(can i have sometime to think..to whom should i deliver...? )

It was crossed since the first..but should i ? since most the spreader of love are Mommies..so then I would proudly deliver this to 'an outstanding Hubby and Daddy' .... A clear blue sky..silahkan Pak Idham ....

Photo Box,..Cheap and Entertaining..

2008-01-22T15:51:00.000+07:00

Mungkin kita ketinggalan jaman dan sedikit norak, in one fine Sunday..iseng2 kita coba foto box.."foto gaul" kata Gifta..eh ternyata fun juga..squeeze-up di photo box yang sempit..(free to laugh guys..).. narcis abis...!!!!

Apa-apa yelow...

2008-01-21T10:20:00.000+07:00

If you love fear factor doing things to conquer your fear, I believe we are Mom (if i could speak on behalf of Mom) we have "Mom's factor". Its the reality show, "How Mother control and manage their emotions in dealing with daily routines specially with their children". I found out the most interesting is the part when the sensitive issue being tested, which i called "uji kesabaran".... i have to sit every-night with my children.... either to do their home work or just daily study to keep them in pattern of discipline I believe Im kind of person .. quite in control (wink!!) , not easy to tense but when it comes into this subject, I lost my control sometime..sometime :) for real..again only sometime..

The difficulty is not in making them understand or comprehend the subject but..non-technical thing like..."ini dulu lah mi.., itu dulu ya mi..., sebentar aja mi...wanna drink first, or can i watch tv after this...?" this session would be needed around 15 minutes, while I was just coming back from the office straight go to this business..even more perfect when "their advocate" around "boleh ngga aku belajarnya sama ayah...?" dont get the wrong idea it would share the burden, children also knows political game, to be honest I hate being bad cop all the time, and Ayah's always been a good cop specially to our little girl...like saving by the bell...(bad cop that everybody loves???? the answer would be Mommy....)

This is story of our routine day..during "waktu belajar"..with my girl

+ Gifta, read this book ok..? (i picked one small story book to practice her reading ability..)
- Why not this..? this is very easy..(she picked other book..)
+ No, this one..u should read loudly..remember on sound..and join..
(She started and just finished one sentence and stopped..and looked at me..)
- I need something for my hair...
(without any comment I get her hair band randomly and put on her head...and get it done..)

- I dont want this one Mom, I want the pink one with heart and fluffy on it..

(here u go guys...and no point of arguing..Mom's got do what Mom's got to do...)
+ ok continue reading..and do the exercise after..
(She continued reading..and again stopped..)
- Mommy why apa-apa yelow? apa-apa yelow?
(she meant everything looked yellow in her eyes, and I was so worried, thought She was dizzy or something..)
+ Have a drink Gifta.., some more..how do u feel now? (worried and concern ..yellow?..oh no, its impossible...tried to get rid of bad thought..)
- still apa-apa yelow Mom..
+ r u ok? feel pusing or perut ngga enak? (concern..and worried..)
- No,...Oooh I know Mom..your cloth is yellow... jadi apa-apa jadi yellow...

Is it really something being a Mom or what?...dont go for fear factor juz go to "Mom's factor"....you will enjoy watching it.. funny as long as u're not the actor..

To my Lovely children :
Seriously, Mommy really enjoy being in this show makes me feel like a winner everyday by seeing you grow.... Enjoy every part..every moment.. Specially when little beautiful voice of yours whispering.."Thank you Mom..." or "I love you Mom..." you guys give me the world...

Everybody was young once....

2008-01-16T10:25:00.001+07:00

about 2 weeks ago, we accidentally got life lesson to think of...about what we've done in our life..was it enough, enough in terms of doing a good deed...sharing, caring, loving..either to family/frens or to someone that we didnt even know... to the needy for instance. Im not talking about money or things.. that we put aside every month or year..but our time..or whatever simple things that we share with others, giving not from the left-over...

It was Sunday, we dropped our girl to her fren's house juz near the house... the road was narrow in our neighbourhood... (Tebet belakang gitu lho!!!), we were going to drive away..but there was motor-cycle stopped in road juz few metres in front of us and I didnt know whether it was public or private (maksud gue..ojek apa bukan gitu..) then we had to wait untill this guy finished to drop his "penumpang" ..who's very old and handicapped coz I saw his iron stick....we wait for 5 minutes..he couldnt get off from the motor-cycle, and it seemed that this old man didnt get any help.. and wait for another 5 minutes.. still could not..then I made conclusion..that this man definetely need help, so then I told ayah that we should help him...instead of juz waiting in the car.., make the story short...then we got off the car...

Oh..It was really breaking my heart to see this old Man, he was so powerless..and weak, we tried to bang door gate but no sign that someone would open it from inside so then decided to open them ... and knocked the door for this old Man..we found out finally..it was his house, and a young Man finally opened the door and handed him over..and we left...

In the car, we were in silent, we remembered our folks...specially our father..we're so thankful there is somebody who takes care of our fathers everyday and there will be always somebody around them whenever they need.. (father from both sides..quite old ayah's around 70 years and mine over 80 years old...). I told ayah that Old Man must be handsome when He was young..I could see that (my expertise...wink!!) and probably wealthy enough for the house is quite big ... or even probably carrying golf club every week end..browsing golf course all over the place with his buddys as hobby...when he was in the prime age..(not try to judge people..juz my imagination..). Ayah gave no comment as ussual...I believed He was busy with his mind..his face looked sad...

It's juz a picture for all us as a Human being...Everybody was young once right...and Everybody will grow old for sure....... the Question went around-around..in my head what should we do now so then we can spend our old days happily with our children and grand or even with our grand-grand children...when we grow old. I dont have the answer as my life is not perfect either far away from perfect, what I can do now..juz give my smile and try to do my best...and be happy for what I am.. I believe whatever was coming from 'ABOVE' is the best for me and also for my family...

Have a good life everyone.....!!! Love and show your loving care to your loved ones while you can....

Always good to have a gentleman around...

2008-01-15T10:11:00.000+07:00

As a Mom, recognizing the character of

your child was not difficult at all.. cause it's part of you and your half..., every child has a unique character, beautiful in their way..without even put the effort to be , they already are. My two children have different character...Easy guess which one is the Daddy..and which one is the Mommy.....

( Ayah if you read this I could not stop smiling..., you always said that they both like u.....? )

But whatever the character my children have...once again...they are dazzling to my eyes..., as my boy, Nugra...He is very helpful person..real gentleman indeed... (deeeeeee.... siapa dulu emaknya....) always try to help people in many occasions...either school, or at home...or do the groceries... Thanks Nugra...You are a real Gentleman..Mommy love you so much...

+ Nugra would help Mommy with the sugar...?

- Ok..Mom..(with pleasure...)

dont have even asked him twice... so sweet...

? Nugra, U will be in Mom's blog soon...coz Mommy is gonna write about this...

(you can guess who were saying this ...yeah..right...He's been teasing me blogging.....)

Dont tell anyone Policy....

2008-01-14T11:59:00.000+07:00

Its common, specially among the gossipers either white gossip or black one..."the Dont-tell-anyone-Policy". Even though it was not really effective coz the rumours or news regardless true or untrue still spread out all over...

Im not going to talk about gossip...'ve been trying to avoid...he..he..finally repent from all those things, but I found that 'policy' was not only belong to adult..(as we dare called ourselves adult....even sometimes we dont even understand the meaning..@@##!!!), but its been also in our children dictionary or vocabulary whatever you might call that....Did I say our children..? maybe it should my children...

This is the conversation with my little girl in the car ...on the way to her school :

+ Is Chika (not a real name) new student?

- Yes, but She still cant do much in the class.. She cant read either Bahasa or English.....(She spelled the Alphabet for Bahasa and English)..but Mom dont tell anyone..ok..

I juz smiled why I should tell anyone about such thing, thats probably my girl felt guilty talking about her fren to me..and worry that I would tell anyone. Did I tell anyone..not really, juz you...(who's She's been copying....then...??)

Funny but I should watch what next.., one night we were talking about how important that we have to eat properly without getting fat ...

+ Talking about being fat, who's fatter me or Mommy's J? (one of the mom at school...sorry :( fren......)

- Hhmm..hmmm..(she found the difficulty to answer this question, She was being careful not disappoint anyone..)

+ Who? (I was curious to death...)

- Hhmm..J's Mom..but dont tell anyone ok Mom...

Wow smile was all over my heart..could be the widest smile in a month, but wait a minute...have I been an evil Mom..? Have I mis-lead her in anyway...juz dont tell anyone ok....

How the simple life can be...

2007-12-28T09:39:00.000+07:00

Time goes fast without even realizing what we have done in year 2007, its already end of December 2007. I've been trying hard to remember what significant thing that I've achieved in 2007... trying so hard... definitely I end-up with nothing ..., what I remember was only lesson, lesson and another lesson ...and My life is just like journey of learning process which never end I feel completely happy about it...

the Kaleidoscopes 2007...

January 2007- Nothing really special that I could recall...just enjoy doing my work.
February 2007- Being another February in the year..
March 2007 - Twice Nasi Kuning as the menu, one for Ayah at 16 and one for Nugra at 25, and my boy's celebrating with his friends at school with Spider-Man Cake, Kentucky and goodie bags (merchandise - cookies - candies & friends) ... he was so happy .., it made me even happier
April 2007 - Another year older ... didnt get any gift, but for sure I had everything I need in life...my LORD - my SAVIOUR, family, frens, love and work ... (free to laugh..)
May 2007 - Another May in the year I guess...or someone's day I might say...
June 2007 - Almost school holiday, school exams season...
July 2007 - Relationship was being tested... and passed not because we were strong only because of GRACE and HIS BLESSING ...(thank you LORD for being so good to our family), Nasi Kuning for Gifta at 13, celebrating with her friends at school as her brother, She also brought birthday cake, food and goodie bag...another happy day of my life being a Mom...Activities on school holiday : Pulang kampung Poros Jakarta-Magelang-Jogjakarta-Purwokerto-Jakarta
August 2007 - Dirgahayu Indonesia..., and the sweet things ...hhmm..better not tell..wink..wink..wink...
September 2008 - a Big lesson I got, "back-stabbing story" which I thought only happens in other world not in mine ... I was completely shocked for like in a month, so furious and living in anger, those feelings made me even worse..
October 2007 - Self-acceptance, ego-buried, put-self together...,self-forgiving, forgive&forget, "life is only ibadah" philosophy. Activities : Pulang kampung for Hari Raya Idul Fitri Poros Jakarta-Purwokerto-Jogjakarta-Magelang-Jakarta.
November 2007 to-be-happy and healthy-decision, starting having proper and healthy meal...but failed all the time...(as always...)
December 2007 Learn "how to shut-up and do my best" in all any kind of issue...

You can see that my life is so simple and ordinary? but still beautiful to remember...so much things to share..

To my children :

From here Mom knows that our life is very simple and ordinary, and I admit that I tend to remember the bad things instead of the good ones, and spent too much on negative thought..which useless and wasted... at this point we can learn so much, just be grateful for we are, and its okay being failed.. don't be loser.. "Yesterday was a lesson, Today is a reality, Tomorrow is a hope"...Keep the faith...my love..

Holiday Season is coming

2007-12-23T06:30:00.000+07:00

We do have really long holiday, my children are on schoold holiday... office closed even for public holiday and also we called that "cuti bersama"...from Hari Raya Idul Adha holiday continued with Christmas Holiday..it almost a week. Nothing's much on the plan, juz short holiday with family..spend some quality time together, You know the meaning right....when we are talking about quality time together with children, it means we are gonna be very busy.... They are gonna be "our boss" during the holiday. Taking this opportunity everybody, We would like to say Selamat Hari Raya Idul Adha 1428 H ...

To my dearest family and friends....who celebrates Christmas...Merry Christmas to you all, Joy and Spirit of Loving, Giving and Sharing will be Christmas is all about...To Everyone HAPPY HOLIDAY Its time to gather with your family and friends....show and tell them that they are special to us...

How you value friendship..

2007-12-18T14:36:00.000+07:00

Sometimes we think that we don't need other people as long as you have your family with you...your children, your spouse..that's your life is all about...your family. Is it true? what friends? does everybody need friends? what friends are for while we have family? I don't know other people.., but I value friendship..high, I love my friends, cant live without them...even my half was a best friend of mine..back then.

I've got lot of friends..but from time to time, I could count our friends with fingers...Im talking about true friends, Someone that you can share with..even you don't see them very often..but feels closed to your hearts, you miss their story, wanna know what's the up-date. I consider myself lucky to have such good friends from Junior High.., Senior High, College.., Uni, or just f' meet f' and became a good one. Some of them have already lived far away from Jakarta..but by the time we meet up...juz like old times...

Friendships play one important role in my life...wanna say Hi to my frens..wherever U are..

To my beautiful fren Iik...thanks for being such a good fren during my difficult time, hope a very best thing happens to your life...
To Baby in San Diego and Ika who's very mobile, I've never seen u girls for ages...but technically we're still friends right...?
To the very good and fine family...Azis family..Specially Iyoel, Ncie and Liza..you guys live far away in Europe but you teach me what frenship really are...I love you always..
To my charming Lady fren, Ninu... I was amazed how you become now.. a very good mom and wife...luv you..
To Sari who lives in Serbia now, thank you for love&frenship...and for always dropping by when you guys pulang kampung (read : kampung tebet), I miss yr lasagna..my kiss for Ian & Adrian..
To Clara..I've always been so proud of u girl, success in achieving your career became regular news from u. In case u need someone..remember that I always be around..
To Bea..its really breaking my heart.....but whatever you've been thru juz keep the faith there will be a light in the end of the tunnel..
To Ipe, Michael, Ime, Bonbon, Leyonz and the gank...guys you always made my day every time we met up or juz over short-conv....forget all the problem I got..Luv you..
To frens which I believe the name doesn't want to be mentioned here...for some reasons "...Wink..." thank you for being a true fren....good things always happen to good people..
The last but definitely not least... to Ayah and my very dear girl and boy Gifta&Nugra..Hope Mom can be a very best fren u've got... best fren that you guys can trust..till eternity..Mom might be not perfect but surely I will do my utmost for you..I love you so much...

There is a question..for you to think and answer for yourself...? One day if you have to leave for good...? What you want people to remember you?

I will start with mine......I want people that knows me... remember me as a friend,.....'a friend in need is a friend indeed' ......don't you think?

Go..be happy..

2007-12-17T16:26:00.000+07:00

Its been long time that I haven't been travelling..by myself since I got family... still doing my travel though juz for work in country area..mostly Kalimantan..to go site.. totally completely juz work nothing more nothing less..

Last Friday, it was my 1st after long time to travel alone...starting all over, book e-ticket, book hotel...it was quite excited..ama sedikit bisa disebut norak...lebih persisnya norak banget...!!! The purpose was seeing my customer in Spore...for discussing my own business - next year plan. Meeting supposed to be Friday around 11.30 at Marina Mandarin...So I have to make my time as efficient as possible...so then I got the rest of the day to explore...the shopping centre...

Having check everything, I found out that going to Spore through..Batam will be a new experience to me...and surely..a lot cheaper..considering all the cost and expenses involved will be for author account..he..he..he.. sedih amat ya.., finally I found a very low budget travel....

So Friday, 14 Dec early in the morning I left to Cengkareng..My children were still asleep, so was my hubby, juz kiss them before leaving...(afraid my children wake up...and doesn't want me to go..as usual).. Air Asia to Batam was on time..and really convenient for budget air line, arrived Batam 8.15 sharp..I was lucky using hotel transport even a bit expensive...so then I was able to go directly to Harbour Bay..and taxi driver took my luggage to the hotel...easy and convi. I was a bit worried that I could not make in time to my appointment... but again I was lucky..got to Harbour Bay juz before 9, thanks to the Lady in counter helping me to get in 9 o'clock Ferry..wuih...juz in time, btw I bought return Ferry ticket since I would spend over-night in Batam instead .. the ticket was S$ 20 a lot cheaper if u buy only one way..., 45 minutes was not long to me..I enjoy..listened to my buddy "Kenny Rogers" singing thru my mobile over and over...

The day was still early when I got to Sing.., it felt that completely different the air..even you live not so far away..Spore - Jakarta not long distance..but hey..who am I complaining? I love Jakarta with whatever in it...but I've been dreaming that one day Jakarta would be more....more..I could find the right word..but for Jakarta people you know exactly Im saying...

Juz in time, meet my Hongkong buyer at Marina Mandarin around 11.30 am... They're just arriving from India, We had a casual business meeting..like meeting old friends, yes we've known each other for like 10 years, business - friendship get along really well, we still keep in touch even when the time business was gone ....the things that I always be thankful for...

After 3 hours meeting finished..then my leisure time juz began, ok then ..I went to SIM LIM for Gadget...Gadget...and Gadget.., my fren ask me to check ASUS Computer 7" EEEPC8G, Apple i-Phone 8gg, and E-90 if I had a time, of course I had..plenty..thats all I have..."time". Those Gadget were so expensive..probably the way I calculated thing still on rupiah or probably I could afford them..or probably..Im kind of person who doesn't really care about things like that...didnt buy anything..so then move on..

Calling my old-old fren Shidah telling her that Im in town, excited to meet her..She asked to come over to her office..at Alexandra Road..so then grab a cab and leave to hers. we haven't seen each other for probably 8 or 9 years, She has 3 girls now.. time goes so fast.., the first time I saw her after long time..I was so amazed...She look a lot younger..and good shape for mom with 3 children.. from office I see that She is doing pretty good. She got her own office and its big...oh I missed her..I missed the old days, so then we went out for Prata..Im crazy about roti cane with curry, Prata gosong..with curry.., until today..this week I had 2 times for lunch..thats me..

Shidah and I were talking abt a lot of things..Mommy things, our children and surely about our husband (juz a little bit...sorry daddy, u can guess what we're talking about...), but on top of it we didnt forget talk about shoes', bags, hair-do, weight-problem...our favourite topics..wherever we are..universal language.., the time was really short I have to do my shopping for my kidz and going back to Batam..and She went back to work..we said goodbye... promise that we plan for Girl day n night out..next time...(Ika if u read this..u should come...).

information that I got last Ferry to Batam would be 11 o'clock at night but I would not go that late though...so then I picked Vivo-city for shopping..Its huge Shopping Centre and same area with Harbour Front. Its a very convininent shopping centre..u can find anything...First thing first..shopping for Gifta and Nugra...find Toys r Us..seems quite packed..its giving season. There were more choice for boys.., than girls.. I admit that I bought quite lots of toys here..check this out For my girl Gifta - 5 Disney princess dolls..(Cinderella, belle, snow white, Ariel, aurora..) coz its on sale, girl accessories, High Musical Merchandise book & Pencil Case (she is so crazy about High Musical Movie..) and for my boy, Nugra... one Big foot ranger car with remote control, Air Plane series, Transformer.. Spoiled them. probably I did but I didn't do it everyday...probably once in a year..they've been such good kidz...they deserve it...

Then for daddy..who doesn't want to be called daddy....ayah, didn't have to check the list..O2 life casing and Shoes...check got it..for me...decided not to buy anything for me...believe that...NO?..its all up to you what to believe Wink...without even realized.. I felt so tired bringing all things on my hands..try to find bench to sit..but failed..I kept walking slowly..capek banget, end up at Cruise Centre at Harbour Front and check the schedule to Harbour..juz in time..oh lucky again..then I checked in...wuih..didnt even have to wait ...went back to Batam with same got in this morning. Different was that my hands was occupied by shooping bags...that's I called that "LOVE"...

Checking in at Planet Holiday Batam about 7 o'clok at night..freshin'up, that's H another day to remember....it wasn't even low budget travel after all Wink..nite nite everybody...

a good time to start something..

2007-11-16T11:10:00.001+07:00

People always wait for a good time or right time to start something.., either something to do with personal or professional life. They're trying to prepare everything as perfect as possible even though they know there will be no perfect thing in this world.. Nothing perfect in this world we often heard that for any situation either to find the excuses.. or to make ourselves feel better coz our failure in doing thing right...or acting wise by giving advice to others..

The question is.."is there any right time to do or start something?" or there will be no " a-right-time". Say that we have to make decision to get married or to change job or career, we always wait for the right time..The right time when have enough money... or any other reason...The right time is something people feel secured to do something...which I believe it's only coming up from ourselves..our faith..very unique and personal..

In my case I've been learning that Everyday is a good time to start something...regardless it will work or not..its gonna be different story. Coz Every day is a New Day...and Every day is a Gift.. that we have to thank for.. either we want to do something different than yesterday..or we want to get through..as we used to..

As today, I make it as a good time to write this Blog..about my family specially my two precious little children Gifta and Anugrah.. my feeling..my mood..Just my simple life story..no expectation or any sophisticated story.. it might be full of grammatical error..but still They're gonna be memory whether sweet..bitter..sad..there will be always something that I can learn.